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♥ audrey
♥ chan ping
♥ charlene
♥ chermaine
♥ deborah(lam)
♥ deborah(lim)
♥ divinia
♥ edlin
♥ fellicia
♥ huiyi
♥ jasmine
♥ jia wen
♥ jian ann
♥ joanneG
♥ kleo
♥ mabel
♥ shili
♥ songying
♥ tabitha
♥ tessa
♥ valerie
♥ vanessa
♥ verillyn
♥ vivian
♥ xiumei
♥ yolanda

seems like all became history.
you became so unlovable now.
i wonder why.

seriously. im so lost without you.
nothing matters now.
im not too crazy to say that.
but life hasnt been AWESOME ever since you're not at home.
come back soon please. im going mad already. MISSED.
i wish i was the one. really wished.
i dont know how long can i take it! rahhhhh.
I MISS YOU! grandmum, of course!

anyhows,
CHERMAINE WEE,
CHERMAINE WEE,
CHERMAINE WEE,
CHERMAINE WEE,
CHERMAINE WEE,
CHERMAINE WEE,
CHERMAINE WEE,
CHERMAINE WEE,
CHERMAINE WEE!
yea. waimin was right. she said it sounded like cher-baby. opps. please dont get angry if you see this. DONT okay! :X
can we like meet soonsoonSOON?
rahhhh.
SMILE, CHEERS, & LOVES((((:

oh well, being the vice-captain of LAU house isnt AWESOME alright.
i surrender. will it do?
people who can fly doesnt wanna run?lol. people will has got great potential hide themselves.
THE POPULAR ANSWER I GOT, "you go run la"
then who will do all the runningS? me? NO WAY.
pity me man! or rather.. pity miss leong? LOL!

if you come back...

what a day

im gonna blog about today. rahhh.
i was fooled.
today aint amazing, SPECIAL, AWESOME AT ALL.
why would i believe and came even though im not feeling very well.
my headache is killing me.
if i had the choice, i would rather visit grandmum who is at the hospital right now.
I MISS HER SOOOOO MUCH!
and when will she be back):
i dont wanna talk about what happened lahh.
besides all the praises, i know all of the words are of jealousy?
please, dont judge me in the way you want it alright.
yea, even though how much you gonna say about me, im still myself.
why should i change just becos you feel that im like that. not the wat you want it to be..
to think, you dont have the rights to do so aye.
"the way i talk, the way i behave, the attitude i got". is all my business.
i would appreciate alot if you meant well.
but somehow, it turn out rather nasty.
so please keep it to yourself then. and i will rmb, if it happens again, i will SHHH you before you could anything. or rather, i will tell you to reflect on yourself FIRST.
this post here is not against anyone in particular.
its just a slight reminder.
DO NOT JUDGE NOR COMMENT ANYONE, if you haven look at yourself(:

rahh. i tried hard not to lose my cool infront of anyone.
but why must you just agitate me when i have already give in.
PEACE, thats all i want(:
i hope im not asking too much?

somehow i find that mr seow/siow's house can be a much better place than my classroom.
and im looking forward to it.. SMILES!

a walk to remember<3

woah. i felt like i have just walk a thousand miles!
but it was nice. and i mean real AWESOME.
yea, i will try to use the word, "AWESOME" everyday. hahah! (anyone rmb why? :)
frankly, i didnt expect myself to confide to someone after so many........ rahh.
but i did! someone who i know less than a month? amazing huh!
yea, i surrender! or should i say i bow down? lol.
anyhows, i enjoyed every single bit of them. and appreciated it loads.
not to forget our MADNESS at the arcade. (:
and the talk we had at EC.
well well, sometimes i really wish that the hols will be longer...
and yes, i went to PP again! LOL!

grandma is at the hospital now. having check-up.
seems like things aint that simple as we thought..
and im thinking if i should tell mum?
will she come? or will she just give me all her excuses AGAIN?
when will it be the day that she wont make me hesistate that much?
sometimes, i hope im just thinking too much...

that's my love..

and my dislike is..
whats wrong with the world now?
why must people learn howda scold vulagrity.
and why let me meet idiotic person like them in the past few days..
i was scolded for unreasonable reason.
my day was really nice until i met her(that mad woman)!

my "last wish" is
anyhows, i have been going to PP everyday without fail. WHY?
perhaps, i should treasure the next 2 days..
cos life will be different after the holidays..


give my love, take my love.

(:

i found the song. hahahah!
yay! thanks to myself this time! LOL!
its really nice alright.
not only the tune but also the lyrics!
everything!
alright. go find this song: TAKE MY LOVE

deb, valerie & xiao wei

and whr's EVONNIE?! hahaha



pictures means so many many things alr.
so i shall not really blog whatever that you guys can see..
im just too tired! rahhh
guess deb, xiao wei and valerie are all suffering the same pain im going through now..
i need massage! anyone? lol
and our dinner was AWESOME! was shared amount us? hahah!
our best hideout: the little corner in MPH!(:

oh well, im looking for another song now..
will inform you guys if i found it!
meanwhile, who wanna help?
ITS REALLY DRIVING ME MAD! hahah

sorry bing that i cant go out with you tmr. SORRY! (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHANGLI aka *******!(:
you must be surprise that i didnt forget you bday right?
ohh well, heres the evidence that my STM is not that serious!
anyway, thanks for things that you did for me as a friend. its really appreciated!
well, hope things goes well for you. (you know what i mean. LOL!)
i know you're crazy over soccer right. but still, sleep early eh!
claim your present from me some day aye..
say THANK YOU boy.
cya ard(: smile!

dont.

dont tell me about anything.
kinda happy with my life now..
perhaps it becos of some awesome people i have been hanging out with..
anyway,caught she's the man yesterday.
so love can start with a kiss. how ..... hahah!
that show was hilarious!
it has been sooooo long i kinda enjoyed a movie that much?
its really worth watching!(: i promise.

anyhows, i know things hasnt been that good recently ever since that incident..
but, im actually quite satisfied with things..
cos at least, its one step further.
things will improve step by step..
have faith.

the lost ring is kinda recovered?
i dont feel so bad or guilty now. hahaha(:

that nightmare was freaky.
please, dont let it happen.
i will pray hard for him.

what a surprise.

went out with jasmine just now.
her sudden call make me rush all the way down to bedok to meet her.
i didnt talk to her for 969994564648 billion milions of years alr.
she changed really much.
its a pity that she stopped schooling alr.
had a long chat with her.
she really told me alot of stuff. I WAS SO SHOCK alright!
but, she just cant quit smoking. *coughSs
oh yea, i know she love me pretty much for acccompanying her, that she even wrote something on a paper, which we pasted somewhere in mac. how lame. hahaha!
i still cant convince her that im single?
well, so many many dont believe too..
anyhows,i also came to realise her ex-bf is one of my closest fren's bf.
ohh well, what should i say..
but jasmine and that guy's relationship only lasted 3 days? how kiddy.
she was even kinda forced into that relationship, becos that guy asked to try out?
now, she told me she kinda regretted. cos that guy isnt a good chap. i agree?
count me out to even involve in such relationship?
okay. i shall not talk about this further.

its really a sad thing that i cant do anything. cos i know i cant change your decision anyway. all the best.

(sorry for unclear image)

HAPPY 12th BIRTHDAY RICHIE!!!!!!!!!!!~
evonnie kinda love you today. cos of your sweet reply!
so this post is for youYOUyou!
just stay cute like the way i always love.
present is with me alr. see, told you i love you for today and for now. LOL!
too bad, i dont think the 3 MONKEYS can go out today. hahaha
i miss you guys alright! perhaps we'll meet and celebrate wayne's belated birthday other day? yay!
now, COUNT DOWN TO MY BIG DAY. ( 3mths-3days) woohOO!
and to papa, happy father's day. though we only like celebrated twice? whatever.
i wished mr seow happy father's day too(: am i nice? LOL!

*zhiyinweini. lets make tmr awesome(:
alright. (it was you) madness is kinda over.. fine?

it was you(blue eyes blue)

I thought that you'd be loving me.
I thought you were the one who'd stay forever.
But now forever's come and gone
And I'm still here alone.

'Cause you were only playing,
You were only playing with my heart.
I was never waiting,I was never waiting for the tears to start.

It was you who put the clouds around me.
It was you who made the tears fall down.
It was you who broke my heart in pieces.
It was you, it was you who made my blue eyes blue.
Oh, I never should have trusted you.

I thought that I'd be all you need.
In your eyes I thought I saw my heaven.
And now my heaven's gone away
And I'm out in the cold.

'Cause you had me believing,You had me believing in a lie.
Guess I couldn't see it,I guess I couldn't see it till I saw goodbye.


lyrics nice? hahah(:
it took me real long to find this song.
of course with the help of friends.
but its only until tonight, i found it.
anyway, thank to those that attempted to help or sent me alot of unknown "it was you" songS.
hahaha. i just cant stop repeating this song for now.

i kinda enjoyed the afternoon and evening.
( excluding the time waiting for toopid cab)
with that duper filling dinner(:
( excluding the irritating waiter)
and the firework was real awesome.
somehow, i just hope the night will last.
it will be a beautiful night in my memories<3
with many hugs to you, i know i owe you loads of them. LOL!
*love you many many & and like you much much* HAHAH.


esten's madness. it was youYOUyou

rahhh.
my throat is giving me problem now.
perhaps becos i sleep late everyday, or maybe its due to the fries i had last night.
yea, went PP again last night.
it was late alr, but i didnt regretted going. hahah
had loads of fun there with my friends which i got to know recently.
so bearry, joey, deb and me were making alot noise at mac last night.
all the "cinema experiences", was really nice. to think we actually did the same thing to the people (annoying those couples).hahah!
deb encounter one which is real bad, so i shall not say it here (unhealthy aye) lol
then we talk about names..
ohh all our name except for bearry's one, has the YING in our chinese name.
hahah, and deb and my chinese name is only like, one word diff? cool, i found another one(:
then we annoy another couple at mac, like how??
ohh, they just bought float, then they look real excited about it.
and so happen that we are all staring at that "yummy yummy" float.
the couple thought we were looking at them, and the staringS just continue till another joke crack up again! hahah
then, as typical,we went to play with the sauce.
tar tar sauce+ketchup+ bbq sauce= blah blah sauce
yea, we all tested it. madness man! LOL
after that, its home sweet home alr.
the two ah lians who thought we snatch their cab was really $%^&*(!!!
but deb still get to get the cab before them! haha

and maybe i should listen to them, and not play maple so often.
HOLIDAY HOMEWORK IS STILL WAITING FOR ME):

can we make everything stay on? really.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VERILLYN
hope im the first to sms you ON TIME(:
yes, love ya TOO baby!
and when school reopen, the smacking time begin! whahahah
cya<3

im crazy again.
listening to this song " it was you" NON-STOP.
though its not the "it was you" im looking for, but yet, its another song you cant miss!
both lyrics were awesome.
the unknown one is more of love, and the one im listening is between love and friends?
well, im viewing people's blog again.
but frankly, it was only these few that im always viewing.
one of them is someone who was once my friend.
people who know me well, will know who im referring. yolanda.
kinda sad to say, she doesnt rmb me.
or issit becos i really changed alot?
cos it has been 5 years. yea. changed real lots.
but this friend of mine has always been in my mind.
her dad, my UNCLE JIMMY,my good friend, someone who trusted me alot.
why would i rmb them even till now..

lets go back to 2001, (world cup time)
i was primary 5, went to korea.
saw this family which i dont really like.
i even commented that they look like ah lian and bengs to me.
im bad, i know(:
well well, after that i realised they were my tour mates.
initially, the whole bus was so silent.
the only person who does all the talking was the tour guide.
after that, i went to occupy the back seat of the bus.
then, uncle jimmy joined me.
all the "kids" start coming along too.
all of us got along so well.
happened to found out yolanda's birthday was also on 15/09/90.
then, theres this night where we went to the nigt market.
my auntie, uncle and cousin left without me!
in the end, i was left alone at the mac( korea)
then uncle jimmy and family asked me to join them.
thats when we started to click even better.
then the story goes on..
i remembered i beg my aunite to give me SGD$8 to buy a keychain for yolanda, cos she like it alot, but her mum dont want to buy for her.
in the end, she lost in a just a few minutes time.
AND I FOUND IT.
but at that time i decieded not to return, cos i dont know why. LOL
but im just wondering.
if i return that keychain at that time, perhaps she would still remember me becos of the keychain? haha
my imagination(:
well, how i wish you could wish me on that very day.
missed by me.

it was you: http://www.lyricshead.com/lyrics/ashley-ballard/it-was-you-lyrics.html

its family day? (:

uncle and family came over..
and we had good time catching up.
really love bing and ting! hahah. my admiration. pure one yes(:
and now everyone said the same thing..
"what happened to you?" slim down quite abit aye.
okay. did i?
i didnt feel it.
perhaps becos i skipped my meal all these days.
or i just dont feel hungry.
getting numb of everything alr.
all thanks to the world im living, and people with me.
well well, im going to meet them again. somewhere.
and meet my auntie. haha.
shes dying to see me, that what she said la. LOL!
at least, she is always with me.
so how can i live without her!
just when i needed someone the most, shes there.
SO I WILL BE THERE. doing all the chores later..
give me a break for now, cos tmr will be another torturing day. rahh

and to you, the lame ass out there, thanks for calling me DEAR(est). thats how lame.
to think you even come up with such stupid name. i seriously surrender.
you win, you're the lamest. IM NOT.

my juliet. my romeo.

fooled again. i quit.
too much of a disappointment in just hours of time.
regardless of whoever, or whatever.
i chose to throw the white flag out.

sway.

went to work today. okay, help out?
had loads of fun.
making fun of ppl, made myself looking like a fool infront of everyone, blah out all richie's secretS, and catch up with my billion years ago friends. and had a enjoyable meal?
woke up at 6+ by auntie's fren.
becos they just like to use my room for the toopid make-up thingy.
good thing is that i was wearing sth.
if not, it will be a big horror to them. alright, im kidding.
okay, got to know quite alot of people today! (:
then i took loads of pictures, cos that place, which we hold the event, will be gone by the end of this year.
im kinda sad though. cos, its one of my "childhood" places. had catching and dancing party over there with my brothers and cousin years ago..
and after today, i felt like learning salsa even badly.
okay, i promise to learn it one day aye.
cos i was told my uncle is a salsa pro , and if i dont learn from him. it will be my loss!
erm, and felt really happy for uncle's student.
cos their performance was awesome! thought the timing abit out, but it was really nearly perfect!
BUT didnt get to see stephanie's salsa performance today, cos her stupid partner never come.
then i got to wait till next year to see this good friend of mine to dance infront of me.
but, i think its worth it la. haha
okay, cleo promised to send me home, and she did. how nice of her right! haha. loves! so, in the end, she also didnt go to HANS with the rest. hah

and, im in love with one of the cat..
PUSSYCATS DOLLS, at least its kinda related to cats? hahah
swayaway.


is my presence significant to you? i dont think so.
and since when? since long ago..

bad night.

the horrible feeling came back last night.
really helpless. and alone.
i was hugging it so tight.
but the night was later peaceful when uncle and auntie came home.
and becos of me. gm didnt slept well last night also. felt real bad.
anyway, i love them for the love(:

caught the omen just now.
catch it if you love horror movie.
i promise you'll love it.
though the meeting was rather short, but i enjoyed it. hah
and after you watch that show, you will be real scare of DAMIEN. dont believe? watch it! hahah

ohh, i better get going..

that sweaty warm palm of yours.

vanessa, thanks so much. lovelovelovessss!
appreciated(: [specially for you(; ]
and thanks for always making my night that occupied. haha
lxy & zle, my adoration. whole heartedly.

the only time i can be with you.
my dreams. and its only you and me.
theres no one interrupting.
the sweet dream that can only happen in the night of my sleep.
how i wish, it can just last forever.
the cruel reality that i hate to face all the time.
if only you were the one who make it better each day.
my life just aint the way it should be.
cos theres too many horrible heartless people trying to make my day worse each day.
be the way you are in my dream. can you?
i somehow find it harder to please everyone each day.
i just cant satisfy what they want.
when things dont turn out the way they want, have they really ask why is it like that?
why am i like that? everything should be fine by now, but i dont see it.
im just drifitng apart. or i should say im never in one.
laugh to my own stupid foolish thinking.
oh well, im in a lost.