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♥ alicia
♥ audrey
♥ chan ping
♥ charlene
♥ chermaine
♥ deborah(lam)
♥ deborah(lim)
♥ divinia
♥ edlin
♥ fellicia
♥ huiyi
♥ jasmine
♥ jia wen
♥ jian ann
♥ joanneG
♥ kleo
♥ mabel
♥ shili
♥ songying
♥ tabitha
♥ tessa
♥ valerie
♥ vanessa
♥ verillyn
♥ vivian
♥ xiumei
♥ yolanda

i was fuming mad just now.
perhaps. i'm someone who need things to occupy my brain.
if not.
i'll either rot at home.
or hallucinating.
who noes?
wellwell.
only heaven knows.


i missed heartlanders just now.
heard it was nice.
but just have no mood to watch it just now.
oh.
shooting stars was nice.
one word to describe that part=>passionate
the only part that i didnt miss.



anyw. thanks for making me feel presence.
just when i needed someone.
you were there.
regardless of how far we are apart, you are still there.
i may not know if what u did really came from your heart.
but i appreciated.
thanks for the missed calls and everything.
the secret of us.




lastly.
i hope that BC wouldnt be so arrogant.
and i'll not give a shit about BC anymore.
completely not intersted in BC's freak
completely dun give me a damn about BC's freak.
just dont be proud of your lousy freak.
it's just a piece of junk.

dun blame me for whatever i do now.
feeling so bad.
the emptiness.
the lonliness.
watever.
do i have to go through this over and over again.
i already have lots.
why is heaven doing this to me.
well well.
only heaven knows.


too bad.
i know whatever i do or try doing.
its gonna be effortless.
so it's pointless for eveything.
you wont understand it anyway.


oh well.
another thing.
does "ewl" still exist??
if i can.
i hope it's still around.
the feeling is driving me crazy.
but who noes if i can still overcome the upcoming obstacles??
the debilitated me.
dun think i can still hold on like before.
...
...
...
...
...
...
...





given a choice. i would like to start all over again.
i will not neglect my whoever.
i promise.
the regretted me.

okay.
i'm just sooo pissed off.
what is happening to this idiotic com of mine.
why must you play tricks on me at this moment.
you noe how much i spent on that" da-da- da- da"
forget. i shall try again!!


anyw. my heart hurts when i saw those things!
why?!!!
is pain again.
gosh.
ahhh!!
wat is happening to me once again??
must be you.
i noe.
it's you.
stop torturing me.
did you just take my heart away?
AGAIN?



btw.
to that person who try giving me ur heart.
if "u are not the one"
regardless of how many heartSS you have.
i also dun want.
feel heart-broken?
then leave me alone.
perhaps "i'm not the one" of my "the other person"
so..
i feel so heart-broken too.
those words.
ahh.
sounds really bad.



anyw. can i dun go sch tmr?
why must you force me la.
make me surrender..
then i'll go?


and all thanks to the person who miss me now and then.
i sneeze non-stop.
stop!!!



lastly..
okay. darling, you are miss by me okay?
you are just so sweet.
i'll listen to you. go study.
will that do?



mission complete..




ZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

boohoo!!!
i'm awake.
duper early.
didnt really sleep can.
okay.
all thanks to the person who took away my darling bolster.
and the one who off that freakin fan..
forget it.
i know i'm goin have panda's eye again.
at this point of time.
i just wanna live with smilezzz.
haha


hmm.
listening to howie's singing in the morning is so nice la.
provided you have to blast the music and SING WITH HIM.
madness of me.


anyway. i noe hw and all the tests are waiting for me..
rahh.
can i hope that i dun have to study!!
it's very irritating to face..the shorts. the broom. the fcuk. the shut-ups?
enough of that.
watever.


anyw. sch tmr!!
i tink is abuse time..
okay.
will get scoldings..
will get punches.
bruises again.
okay.
used to it alr.
but i will get to see all my darling friends!!
my dear and my lao-gong.
isnt that great.
oh.. my lao-gong.
we married in the bus la.
so stupid but SWEET.
the good-bye kiss was so warm??
haha.



and i just hope that my queen will not be bothered by those fcukin stuff.
rmb there's always pauS and ballS ard who will be with you.
and I"LL BE THERE FOR YOU??

today.
i cant really recall wat i did in the morning.
so forget about the sat morning yea?
half of my afternoon was at town.
part of the afternoon was waiting for my queen to arrive?
big ceremony ya. so wait and wait.
actually its my retribution la.
blame nobody yes.
anyway. feel lyk i'm attending the modelling course la.
tooks millions and billions of pictures.
but i really enjoyed it.
cause i dunno when will be the next time?
so after all. we dun have to pay for a single cent to pay for those prints?
delete as and when we want.
shuang!




i'm just so sorry.
not by purpose to ps the both of u.
namely chingy and changli.
dun blame me.
i just wanna do what i wanna do
go wherever i wanna go.
with whoever i wanna with.
is a valid reason?



anyway. i'm broke now.
but who cares about tmr.
most importantly.
when i think that i didnt spent my money wrongly..
that will be enough.




u still rmb the places that we went and stuff.
but it does not matters anymore.
you will lose out.
i have tried hard salvaging our friendship.
but that freak obstacles just wont go away.
you really disappointed me.
treat me as nothing?
i really had enough.


anyway.
oh. i'm just addicted to that song again.
you are the one. by c21.
had tt urge to follow the lyric.
"i'll give you love if you give me your heart".
okay.
those who are deprived of love.
come!!!
i will shower love to all..
trust me.
haha.



and hope none will be stupid to fall into ASSHOLE's trap.
will u all just stop hurting the little pity precious ones.
it's FCUKin bad la.
cant stand it.
rahh.
hope u all can all disappear in the spook show(magic show)?
never to return again.
i wish
i hope
i pray



my heart hurts when i see u falling into other fcukin trap.

okay. i have already lost count of how many days did i not blog.
i'm lazy. or really tired of blogging.
and when i wanna blog the other day.
this stupid blogging system dun let me blog. wth.
it has been so long since i ever stepped into lor 19.
if i can. i hope i will not step in until my exam ends.
i dun want see mum's face for the time being. cause i know i'm gonna miss her real much.
what can i do?
but i've sneezing so that often.
it always mean that she expecting for my visit.
i will still not go.


my previous week was horrible.
quarrelled with so many ppl.wth.
but i want say this.
if t's my fault, i would apologise.
but if it's not.
regardless of what you did, how much you have teared.
i will not surrender.
please give me a valid reason.



though i went to seek help?
but it doesnt seems useful.
forget it.
it's fading away.



if the other party is happy.
let that whoever have it.



and i really hope that the previous JC lecturer can improve on his teachings?
i dun wish to let anyone noe or let anyone think tt i'm skipping the test.
it's enough.




u want you take it.
handle it with care.




i hate that short white ass.


wish the all of you would vanished.

liars is all i hate.
stupid.
how could anyone just lie without considering the feelings of the VICTIM?
cruel bunch of bad people.
i simply hate ppl who lie to me.
especially when i dun lie to them or hide things from them.
whatever for?
fun?
or just want people to sympathize them?
okay.
once again i found out what's going on.
you bad failure liar!
why are you are always in my black-list?!!!




watever. i'm too foolish to be fooled by you once again!
enough.

i didnt go school today.
not really due to any reason.
but i dun know what's wrong with that doctor?
give me so many weird medicine?
fine. i'll take it.
anyway. sometimes i really hate rainy days.
okay it's the stupid thunder.
super duper loud la.
freak.
cant even let me sleep soundly.
so i got up aroung 4 am?
my friend told me to bring sweater and stuff.
okay.
i actually "FORWARD" the message to my other friends?
i'm so bored la.
thinking of nothing.



i dun want to go ROD la.
stupid. wasted my money.
spent on clothes and stuff?
why must we wear formally?
cause of j-wong?
if that's the case.
it's totally unreasonable!


i'm totally wore out.
why must i lead such tired life.
lacking of sleep everyday.
i'm tired.
okay.
perhaps it's time to change my lifestyle.




new beginning.
a new day has come.
dun tell me how i change.

fine. i shall admit that i disappeared or vanished from where i'm supposed to be this few days.
partly because i just wanna run-away or wanna REST!!
or accompany my mum.
yes. indeed the topics we talk about were gross?
but finally i open-up.finally?
anyway. sorry that i've to switch off my phone?
but i just some peaceful days?


right now.i enjoyed today.
sitting in a super duper fast sport-car was fanstatic!
okay.1st time.
the journey to east cost was enjoyable.
little did i expected that there was beer and peanut.
okay. i drank some and ate some.
nice?
so perhaps that's why i'm feeling dizzy right now?
i dun care.
because there's no schooling tmr!
i can sleep as long as i want.


i hate the afternoon.
cause my hair got burnt?
unbelievable.
but that's what happened.
mum didnt believe until she saw my RED skin.
her saliva was indeed the best potion in the world?
was okay moment later.
but my hair?
i just hate the stupid spilt.
okay.blame my luck?


anyway. stop asking.
i enjoyed the seoul garden that night.
was filling.
and tha chilli crab!
was the best ever.
enjoyed yes?
satisfied with my answer?
anyway. my sun is waiting for me?
i must see the sun-rise this time.
cause i missed it every single time when i come here.



it's when you open-up.
dun keep to urself anymore.
or no one will ever know what you are thinking.
-missing the somebody again...

today. i didnt intend to spend my time in that coffeeshop.
enough.off day la.
i've been so hardworking for the past few weeks already.
so i guess i shall be good to myself for that one day??
okay.
i'm tired. after staying up till so late yesterday.
for the sake of E- MATHS test.
though not really everything are in??
but at least some.
and the effort i put in??
tear that i shed?
i dunno what happened to me.
somehow i think it's because dere's someone like tyb who can understand my problems.
i'm thankful enough?
it's has been long since someone read my mind that well.
understand what i'm feeling.
i'm gonna work hard after all the stupid mistakes i've made.



hmm. quarrel with partner ytd.
i'm pretty angry about it la.
but my main purpose was to make jo and manda to patch up.
after all the arguements the other day.
am i wrong??
i actually purposely make her angry with me in some ways.
but i didnt know why it turn out to be REAL??
she shouted.
which makes me feel that dere's no respect at all?
what is that we cant talk in a nicer manner??
i dun understand.
shouting like crazy woman cant solve anything.
okay.it's over. hope it wont happen again??




i enjoyed the bus ride today.
indeed all the way to hougang?
it's stupid.but not that bad.
all the way just for fun.
but at least there's ice-kachang.
not that nice as ten-storey.
but it still nice.
okay.
sometime i think it's not the taste of the food that matters the most.
it's the person you eat with.
whatever it is.
i would never eat with that P.I.G?
disgusting is all i can describe with.




it's a long weekend.
my wedding crashers.
my sentosa tanning.
my changi airport.
my seoul garden
my k-box.
AND my revising of work??
that's about it.
how i really wanna spend???



sweet words are meant to be kept.
not to be proud of.
when there's a will, there's a way.n there's you and me.
n everybody!!!:)

at this moment.what can i say.
i presumed everything is good.
i'm still trying to adapt the new life of myself .
i simply like to ignore everything about you.
not talking to you.
try all means just to ignore you.
it's hard
but without trying,my life will remain in misery.
when the feelings is not already. there's pointless to search it back.
we just bame it to the word "fate"?
forget about everything.


anyway. lfl actually ask about me today.
hmm. i'll treat it as a way of concern.
cause it has been so long since a teacher has ever ask bout my life?
motherly love?
i dunno.
but i'm already quite satisfied about it already.
i blame no one.
cause after miss liping.
i cant another teacher who still communicate with me in such friendly tone.
i appreciate each concern that whoever shown?
but definitely not one who trys to control my life?
that's not the way of concerning.


anyway. the laughter of captain chew came back.
31 A came back too. but vanish so suddenly.
so tyb was kinda bored during bio?not that lively as ever?
i hope captain chew.this darling friend of mine will take good care of her HEALTH?
may one of the angels just heal her?


and audrey is really the best prefect ever!
she really got the gene of liang po po! who who who who...:)
she persuaded those guys damn well.
i'm impressed!
now i really know this pig-gi-ni better?
i wanna give her a million kisses for helping me to complete my compo?
samten is just too lazy to finish it!
anyway..i'll save the best for the last.
i've promised. the deal is gonna be on her bdae.
if it's a weekend or holiday? too bad huh.


i'm still waiting for my wedding crashers!
but why is this show nc16!!!
i wanna complain.idiotic.
i dun care.
i must watch it. no matter what.
sneak in? buy pirated disc?
i just wanna watch the show that i longed for...


you were not in the bus today.
i chased the bus just for the sake of you.
hope ther's a better tomorrow


it's doesnt matter anymore.
cause i think i can really let it go this time.i'll try.

school was normal as usual.
nothing special.
we took class picture.
wong c.c actually wore until so FORMAL?
we all treat him as laughing stock la!
i bet he didnt know about it. but we were having having a fun time.
i simply cant stand ppl who try to act tall.
plaese. that's your height.
you just got to accept it.
like me, though i'm still not happy with my height?
but it's the facts that i still have to accept.



anyway, without the laughter of captain chew and 31A.
the class was so much quieter?
i'm not used to it!
perhaps i'm one of those noisy one?



i saw you on the bus today.
i think i still like the little face yours.
hmm. purely nothing more than that.
it's just that simple.
no kidding.
i waiting for tmr just for ur sake.



hmm. i have found out something.
something stupid.( btw, i really like this song.still.)
i have making myself a fool for all this while.
but i guess it's never too late to wake up.
fine. i shall stop that.
perhaps you never really like me. but i'll just take it as that LITTLE feeling still existed.
no more now.
but once?
it's foolish of me.
but what to do if you really like someone.
regardless of age, looks, sex, character and everything.
you wouldnt mind it at all.
i'm just clueless for now.
wondering if i have thought something "right"?
but if you really like somebody.
nothing matters.
that's all.




oh ya. malay pau ask me if i wanna watch charlie and the chocolate factory today.
okay.i'm quite keen ya:)
hope i'll get a good response from people yes?
anyway, wedding crasher is still my priority.
i've been waiting since new year?
but the stupid cinema just cheated me.
what is this!!!
it's really a nice show(judging from the preview)
i'm really waiting forward!




okay, i've just received comments that i shall just use "bigger words"
so that you can read comfortablely??
is this good enough??:)




i hope so...

broke.
my last pair of contact len.
gosh!
freak.
i'm like a blind person loitering the street today.
was struggling on my own.
today is just not my day.
guess it's not mabel's day too.
she would call me whenever she got problem on sunday?
i dunno why.
and my job is to comfort her?
okay.
hope i did help a bit?


anyway. i really miss the hawker centre.
the no 7 table
the you mian.
the chicken rice.
the wanton mee.
but i hate the cats over there.
irritating creature.
luckily i still have the ice kachang with me.
ten-storey's ice kachang is always da best!
i cant describe how nice.
i'm goin to have my 100th bowl soon.



you're just nothing. nothing in my life.
i regretted.