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hmm. some said my blog is really not easy to be understood.
to this. i can only say. if you bother. read it?
if not just read and tag just to kill time alright?
cause i'm not forcing you to UNDERSTAND what i blog here.
hmm. i am not someone who blog their daily live or routine.
that will be like so bored?
i blog things that come from inside. deep in..

MONEY MONEY! i hate MONEY!
money is really nothing to me?
because of money. i tolerated for that few hours.
what's that for..i regretted alot. really.
well. i really hope i can just vanish from where i am now.
nothing seems to go RIGHT.

mum was obviously showing attitude and unfairness.
she told me that she want to give me some LECTURING these few days.
well. i accepted. cause i thought it will be good.
but that first LECTURING that i got is already===>BAD
got all the accuse and stuff...
what more does she want? i really gave up so many things. let go so many things.
just for her?
i wonder if it is worth it?


yesterday just watch a Korean show. cant remember the title.
but after that show.. really miss my grandmother so much.
whoever just happen to see this..
hmm.. i really hope you guys treasure your grand parents.
you might not know when they will leave us.
but once they are gone..they will never be back.
we will then no longer get to eat the food they cook for us.
may not even have the chance of hearing them calling our name.
by then.. its too late to do anything..

but just now.. i really dont know why grandma wanna argue because of that $100?
is it worth it?
for this one last time..
i really hope to end all the unhappiness things.
and just tell her i really love her.
but she cant hear.. so hope she can feel it.

now at friend's house. we are in a room. somewhere. where there is light..bed..fan..air-con..com.. and everything that we need. we are up to no good alright!! anyway. yesterday someone told me she was too tired to go school? what a good excuse! we played badminton together the day before ? and i still miss my dinner. but how come i still can go to school. well well. i concuded that i'm abnormal. alright. the fact is that i just want to make myself tired! only to do this then i can sleep more! and indeed i overslept today. so didnt go to school. anyway. yesterday game was not a bad one.really not a bad one. i saw the class spirit. had lotsa fun. thanks for the hugs. suddenly felt so warm. haha. i felt the support? THANKS TO ALL.(i'm not bias alright) i really hope some people can stop being biased. that's really too much. i really dont want to name out. but hope you guys just stop that. how bad can you ppl be? everything will soon come to an end. ya right to say MERRY CHRISTMAS to me. cause CHRISTMAS is coming?? some people is just mad alright.. i forgive them! really. putting everything to an end. starting of new beginning. -missing baby that much

finally...
i'm right infront of the computer.
i was in my dreamland for the past few days.
yes. SLEEPING!!
finally know that SLEEPING is the best thing i can do..
other than that..EAT!
does that sound like a lifestyle of a pig??
who cares.
actually.. not that bad.
i got exercise abit okay!
tanning..cycling..BASKETBALLing..too lazy to name all.
hmm..i dont just lie still whole day like a dead body?
anyway..dont expect me to be a lobster again!
i had learnt my lesson alright.
what's the rush for.
must get tanned slowly then NICE.
and someone told me there's still time for us to tan during holiday..
so step by step..
well well..
i still dream of sweet things as usual.
so how can i ever miss it.
i will sleep more..
no.. I MUST SLEEP MORE.:)
to that someone..
i am still waiting for our APRIL SNOW!!!
relax.. i got loads of patience.
I WILL WAIT FOR YOUR SAKE!

ya. i will go school tmr alright.
so stop reminding me.
one last time.I WILL GO..
(provided i didnt overslept/miss the bus)


heading towards my dreamland.....
...
.

life of mine was great. didnt expect to be so nice.
actually things can be sort out so easily.
i promise i would not make the same mistake again.
anyone who happen to see this..
yes yes. learn from my mistake okay.
here it goes...
i sms my fren. saying that i wanna meet up.
and it wld probably be tmr or smt.
then of course we wld keep in touch through sms.
but that's how bad keeping in touch through SMS??
we didnt call or sms each other.
thinking that one will call the other if he/she can make it.
so after all the waiting..
one decided to call or sms..
HOWEVER.. GONE
its either too late alr or one has alr got a date or smt.
then didnt get to meet..
yes yes. its after all the waiting..
still didnt get to meet. WASTED!!
must learn from it.
never trust sms.
confirm till you get to hear the voice of the other.
trust me alright.



alright. i'm saying this to everyone.
i would want to dream of you everyday.
will this do?
that dream was really a good one.



didnt go school today.
cause i ws too tired after ytd.
well well. it was DAMN NICE!!
thanks baby:)

i blog the other day. which i dont even remember is which day.
but that blog cant be publish. wasted.
hmm. shall just talk abit about it.
its story of me.
i reflected some stuff.
but thinking back. i dont think i would thought it the same way anymore.
things are just different.

i have learnt.
is time to make some changes to my life.
its wrong. total mess.
shldnt have even thought of those stuff.
things that are impossible.
things that are wrong.
things that are not as simple as i thought.
yes. not all things are possible.
when the fact is there. just got to accept.
sometimes. i wondering where does all the pain come from.
those sourish-bitter feelings that just come piercing my heart.
no one will be able to feel it i guess.
but well. i cant always make the same mistakes again and again.
i can only say. though those wound can be heal. but the scar will always remain.
and i should always use it as a reminder.
i blame no one but myself.
i have already gave up things.let it be.
i dont want it to happen again. its time to put an end.
there should be no regrets.
cause i have already tried. tolerated. believed. forgive. trust.
no matter how much more the pain gonna hurt me.
its time to end it.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOANNE ASHLEY
though i cant make it today.
but at least i made an effort to post this thing.
i'm sorry. i lied.
yes. i got some more important to attend to.
so i'm really so sorry.
like what i've said.
i give you my love alright. (you dont have to give me your heart)
enjoy friend:)

idiots and idiots. ask me if i wanna join stupid stuff?
i'm not going to join OKAY!! dun wanna get cheated.
i say this for the last time.

tireeed!! slept so late.
woke up so late.
ya. didnt go home ytd. but people like stef are obviously crazy to give me that reaction.
so what's with wearing slipper with pe shirt and stuff.
what's wrong. only the slipper belong to me. but i think its alright?
not as though i'm not going to change.
and yes. i change it in the bus.
i wanna say. I HATE THAT MAN.total retard.
anyway. i felt so messy. everything was so messy.
perhaps i should really go home on sunday night.
so please dont make me stay cause you know i will.


geo was easy. cause i really go do RESEARCH??
just that i cant really the whole paper again.
ya ya. my faulty hand!
A-math.. wish me luck that i can at least score 10-20?
ONLY GHEE-GHEE said it was easy.
perhaps she really go practice or she's an ALIEN?


but i didnt regretted going to town that night.
though only go there walk walk, eat eat.
but everything seems so different as compared to the other time which i went with others.
maybe because now exam? so i guess i really treasure every second there?
yes. i wanna complain.everywhere seems so packed!
and what's the point of putting our name down in the waiting list.
we still waited for duper long.
but the food really nice. that drink is even better COOLER than slurpee?
my brain really freeze for that moment. i was really shaking like crazy.
you just dont wanna give me some warm? LOL
yes. i promise i would go fish&co after my exam. i'll be back.


i would free after thurs!!
maybe should really go ESCAPE and shout to the bottom!!
and not come school for other non-important days!!


i love LIME juice.


just seeing you is enough.
happy enough.


-just wait for me.

OH MY GOSH!!.there can be miracle alright!!
my blog suddenly "recover" for no reason.
only some will get what i mean la.
watever it is. i really feel like sueing all those idiots.
things keep poping out of the screen for no reason.
and some are those eeee..GROSS!!


anyway. EXAM!!!
gosh. now i really understood what is you reap what you sow.
hmm. i hated myself.
go make stupid mistakes.
how could i!!
i really wanna thank yan sheng for helping me that much.
but when the real paper come to me.
the same question somemore.
freak. i forgot some of the important steps?
how stupid.
i just cant figure out how people finish their paper that fast.
i dont think i really complete any single paper.as in reaaly the WHOLE thing.
big regrets. is there anything wrong with my eyes or my hand la.
.
..
...
very tired.
really exhausted.



giving time for a break now.
after exam. i promise.
i'll show you what is me.
do what i wanna do.
nothing will stop me.



-wait for me.

there's really something wrong here.
i cant blog like usual.
all thanks to this stupid blogger.
I WANNA LODGE A COMPLAIN!!

today plan to study in the morning.
but dont think can make it.
whatever. i think must have the mood and stuff.
right now. i'm still relaxing myself.
since nothing to do and dont have the mood.
cant force it too.
but i have promise myself to make it for the best.
cause i really wanna show mum my beautiful coulourful result slip.
hopefully i can. I CAN DO IT man

anyway. ytd dou hua was nice.
i love it.
let's have it again someday..


i just wanna remain pure simple...
dont talk about any other thing anymore