xanga

msn
friendster
myspace

credits
BRUSHES. 1 2 3 4
BY. shotgun
MISC. imageshack blogger

ARCHIVES
July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 February 2006 March 2006 April 2006 May 2006 June 2006 July 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 December 2006 January 2007 February 2007

♥amanda W
♥ adeline
♥ alicia
♥ audrey
♥ chan ping
♥ charlene
♥ chermaine
♥ deborah(lam)
♥ deborah(lim)
♥ divinia
♥ edlin
♥ fellicia
♥ huiyi
♥ jasmine
♥ jia wen
♥ jian ann
♥ joanneG
♥ kleo
♥ mabel
♥ shili
♥ songying
♥ tabitha
♥ tessa
♥ valerie
♥ vanessa
♥ verillyn
♥ vivian
♥ xiumei
♥ yolanda

they went singing without me.
blame who?
i simply dont like looking at my phone already.
life hasnt been that awesome all these while.
and perhaps its time when i befriend with my fear. rahh
please enjoy to the fullest while im not.

unexpected, its gone just like that, thanks to the extra one.
frankly, i dont enjoy. i dont like it. i learn not to show mercy, not to pity people. why must i in the first place. much of regrets.
i still chose to overcome it myself.
cos its sad to say im always there, but you're not.
maybe becos i chose not to. i didnt gave you a chance to do so?
but well, have you ever tried so?

collidecollidecollide. its a smile i put infront of people.

i should be happy now,cos its after my chinese O's. but its not the way it shld be. you know it all.
but i cant tell.
my sentence to you gets shorter.
everything just gets lesser.
i want to end it.
but each time, it fails.
perhaps we'll just stop all the stupid mistake.
stop all the foolishness stuff, cos i no longer enjoy the single bit.
i want to break free.
cos im just trying too hard.
i swear its the last time.
things are just getting out of hand, in a way that we can no longer salvage.
if this continue, i dont know what will our relatiohsip will be like.
and its proven that time wasnt much of help.


drink till the bottom, and let me gets so high that i forget every misery.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WAYNE!
the best man i ever met. hahaha.
he is the one i tell most of my secrets to.
the one who comforted me real loads when im angry or im down.
too many good points of him that i cant say it here.
but too bad, he is celebrating his bdae with his cg. so perhaps i'll pay back some other time..
i still love him anyway!!
WER, lovelovelove((:
wonder why everything is in blue?
cos its wayne's fav colour. LOVE ME MAN!


this is really an exceptional one(:

trust

every devotion has been taking about trust for the whole of this week.
sometimes i really hope you were there to listen and really pay attention to every single bit of it. dont treat it as another SIAN devotion. cos i think its something worth listening.
sometimes explaining certain things can be so freaking idiotic, but the point is you ever tried doing so. but if you leave the things as it is, the doubts shall always remain, and MORE DOUBTS WILL add on.
this is why i always have things to explain. but usually, it was treated as an excuse.
i have lost some of the trust, but im always trying my best to gain it back.
eg. zhong thought i pon school that day, she even said it to the whole class. and right after her lesson, i chase after her and explain the whole thing. she believe it. becos i show that i care, and i did what i ought to do?
now, what about you?
do you think its very complicated and troublesome to do all these things?
if you really think it this way, well.. the doubts and all the question marks shall remain.
i just hate lying to people, and i'll try my best not to hide things from them. cos i want them to trust me without having a single doubts of my actions and words.
can you? im trying hard to trust you? but you are just not doing anything.
its pretty sad. now, you are the one who have the choices. show me everything have been worthwhile.
be frank with me. dont let me be the last to know the truth.
be the one i can really trust.

11.50pm. all or nothing, you decide it all.

love.

just feel like thanking someone.
the one who cut fruits for me everyday without fail.
the one who walks up the stairs just to see i have recovered from my sickness.
the one who nag becos im always missing my meals, not sleeping early.
the one who always try to cook for me.
the one who snatch my pillow.
the one who is just like my shelter.
the one who i kisses the most.
the one who i simply cant live without with.
the one who im worried about every now and then.
the one who is also not feeling well right now.
im just touched for all the things you did for me, cos no one else will.

am i being too emo?
perhaps becos of the songs im listening right now. LOL.
my new addiction. hahaha

a feeling that i cant describe now.
i just saw something that is not very pleasant for me.
but come to think again, i got no rights to feel that way.
and why am i not concentrating more on my studies now?!
sometimes, i just hate myself pretty much. rahhh.
i can only blame myself for everything.
sunk.

anyway, today was a pretty fun day. FOR DONT KNOW WHY, i quite like today.
everyone seems to enjoy the day MINUS the MR ANAND.
i will definitely miss today, cos i know it will not be everyday.
when everything and everyone is like total madness, its always awesome fun.
but good things dont last forever aye..

even though the word was nothing to you. but it reflected everything.
and i really mean everything.
its really disappointing. it hurts so much.
the painful feeling that im unable to describe.
was it all worthwhile?

11.31pm. i will do everything i can till the day i couldnt.

what a day.

i felt i wasted today.
i wasnt feeling well for the whole afternoon.
imagine. holding a plastic bag everywhere you go. rahh. it was real bad.
i didnt eat much today. but i just feel nauseous. and the feeling is so horrible.
but after the massage, everything was better?
that cup of warm milk save my life.
anyw,saw huang bi ren and some other ppl today..
she really look awesome sweet. hahaha

btw, just read someone's blog. chermaine wee to be precise.
irony? contradicition? yes. tell me what is not then.
i felt everything is irony and contradiciting.
i really mean so many many things.
as for her recent post, yea. should you be the one who give or receive?
the best answer is to be neutral.
dont give too much and dont take things for granted also.
the thing is, dont overdo it.
and please dont have doubts in my answer, cos no one else can give you such answer.
ive been through more than enough to tell you this(:

ohh, and theres this one thing i really wanna do, pollute the mind of our dearest mother.
and i hope i can CONTROL every single one.
if only i could, we might be eating dessert right now? LOL.

and the answer to my friend: yes, you tell me who likes to be a tissue paper?! its just a use and throw away thingy. not everyone like me will keep it to remember those .... time.
ohh, and you're definitely not my tissue paper. hope im not yours or anyone's tissue paper.

im just wondering right now, what if i really told you that I LIKE YOU, at that time? what will the ending be like? perhaps things will not be the same? but well, its fate(:

dont use and throw. rahhh

smile.

went out just now.
with someone whom i didnt meet for 9842354488885222 millions billions of years.
alright. adeline: i purposely didnt tell you whr i go. yea, secretive. haha. who knows if you will stalk me again. LOL! all the best for your BIG-WALK anyway(:
yea, ate quite alot today.
but my DEAR AUNTIE still insist that all was not enough. madness.
mac's twister fries was nice. with sweet chilli/ mayo+tar sauce.
and so many many awesome food. i simply love it.
the sugarcane juice was duper sweet la. i cant believe that i actually drink sugarcane juice everyday without fail. hopefully, nothing bad will happen. hahaha.
erm, running 2 bus-stops just to catch 12 was madness. but I DID IT.
guess the bus was really too slow. LOL!
and once again, i felt alseep on the bus.. hahah










smile to that awesome leg+shoe(:


9.22pm. come back, will you?

total madness over that song.

i cant stop listening to that particular song.
once again, i fell in love with his voice.
was listening to sgsten on the bus just now.
think i was too tired.
so i fell asleep without realising it.
and when i woke up, its really somewhr near senette ave.
the feeling was so nice. cos its has been a long time i just fell asleep when i only intended to close my eyes.
erm, not to worry.
this time round. my wallet is safe with me.
cos its the first thing i look for when i opened my eyes.
i really cant afford to lose it.
cos theres MORE photos inside now(:

today is really a short day.
realrealreal short.
its 11.47 pm alr.
the polyclinic trip was fun.
cos theres this adorable cute someone entertaining everyone.
and i admit im really a nutcase.
cos i just cant staring at someone.
of course in a secretive and nice way. LOL
i just felt i know this person.
in the end, i smile and walk off.
waiting for ard 1 hr was not that bad, cos i felt i alr know everyone there.
the doctor was nice. love her man!
and after that, went to eat the prawn mee that ive been craving for so long.. its still as nice.

anyway, i promise fellicia, the birthday girl that i will write one more post.
cos i thought the previous was not that awesome.
yes, its her BIG DAY, and she can legally watch NC 16 show from today onwards. i will not be jealous.
cos i felt sooo young when i stand beside. she know the reason. LOL.
oh well, give me time alright. ARE YOU REALLY THAT SURE THAT YOU ARE MUCH TALLER THAN ME? LOL. we'll see..
and, please give me that big and NICE SMILE.
the fact is that, youre NOT UNHAPPY.
its becos of "auntie's visit", if not i dont think you will be that emotionally over certain stuff. haha. so settle some of the stuff after your periods aye. hahaha.
once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY FSHJ.
dont be so bias alr yah. haha
oh, and i can assure you that you can lean on all of us. really.
if not, my shoulder is still free for you to lean on. LOL.
i was looking over those letter that we used to write to each other.
i was actually smiling to those letter. heh.
alright. my *DARDAR. thats the post.
i bet you really enjoyed yourself today, which is good. hahaha. i assume la.
my promise. MILLION BILLIONS OF HUGS AND KISSES ANYWAY(((;


alright guys. ive just changed my blogskin.
thanks to those that help me(:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FELLICIA.

theres this stupid-Q right now.
but anyhows, i already wished you. and this post is for you only.
not bad alr right? hahah.
alright. i dont feel like talking much here in the blog.
i prefer to tell you some stuff personally.
but theres one thing i wanna complain aye.
BUT STILL, i will tell you PERSONALLY.
once again, HAPPY SWEET 16th BIRTHDAY!

- time. 19052006

MADNESS


alright. i'll show you guys some pictures aye...







oh btwbtw.0904. I LOVE.
you dont know how long it has been, IM REAL MADNESS like today..
sorry aye. those pictures are kinda BLUR. i know. LOL
but i only TOOK one. which is the one chan(1)ping(4) look realy CUTE. LOL
the one she is trying to smile? LOL i dont know.
alright. she must be saying she look cute and HOT in every picture now. haha
erm, MADNESS. real madness.
everything was near perfect. except for those BHS ppl that we met. rahhh. real LC.

alright. i have been making people to do this stupid "quiz" these few days..

HERE IT GOES..

CHOICES:
-COFFEE
-TEA
-CAPPUCINO
-MILK
-FRUIT JUICE
-BEER
-WINE
-VODKA

CHOOSE ONLY ONE, that you would like to share with me.

keep the answer in your mind.

NO CHEATING.





coffee-just friend
tea-you love me
cappucino-we're best friend
milk-im your special person
fruit juice- you care for me
beer- you admire me
wine-you like me
vodka-you want me


hahah. so many many different answers i got from people.
most is WINE and MILK.
yinzhou, anderson, chermaine wee, joyce chng, ho, changli, cheryl,ting and dawn 's answer were the most interesting, esp anderson and yin zhou. LOL(:
adeline even wanted to change her answer. HAHAH.
alright. and to some people,cannot choose all la.
when i first received, i also chose ALL. LOL
anyway, its kinda accurate. TRY IT with your friends(:

yea, lyrics always tell the truth.
go with someone who really wants your love and care but not someone who wants your accompany. simply love the lyrics.
I LOVE AND I LOVE YOU people. LOL!
im getting lame here as always. blabla. guess im kinda DRUNK? hahaha
okay. i'll stop here.

11.27pm. be the faithful one that i love. blinded by your light.

RAHHH

sorry and a million billion more sorry.
i didnt mean it. really.
the phone just shut itself.
its up to you to believe. still, trust me alright. hahaha
BUT MY PHONE WAS PERFECTLY FINE LAST NIGHT.
cos the talk which lasted for around 1 hr+ wasnt interrupted.
anyway, talking to around 1 am was really awesome.
but the effect of it, was also...
i love it anyway.

8.11pm. cya, love.

HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY.

alright. its belated already. i know.
MOTHERS but not MOTHER. cos im grateful for what my MOTHERS has done for me.
yes. all the naggings and scoldings was $%^&!!!.
but i just hope that YOU ALL know i really love you guys can already. with all my heart!
went to MS ytd. wasnt that nice as we thought. kinda disappointing.
SMILE TO THOSE WONDERFUL PICTURES THAT WE TOOK!

a math was a killer! i swear! cos i actually missed some of the part that were tested. rahhh.
but i shouldnt be angry today. cos its a RATHER SPECIAL DAY!
guess what? its someone's birthday!
someone who is ever so nice to me. someone who scold but love me loads.
I SIMPLY CANT LIVE WITHOUT HER FOR NOW.

guess im just expecting too much.
whats A.W.A.D?
its simple, all was a dream.
everything was just like a dream.
it come and go so fast that i didnt even get to enjoy to the fullest.
i got no choice.
if not, just let me stay in that dreamland, and not wake up.


9.50pm. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY LOVE!

cant deny the fact.

alright. i dont know how many BILLION second i didnt touch my computer.
okay, all that i have missed.
so was everybody thinking that after next week, life will be free?
if yes, YOU'RE WRONG.
cos that bring us closer to the MORE HORROR thingy which i dont feel like mentioning.

LIFE IS FULL OF CONTRADICTION.
all thanks to you, i have learnt something new again.

to be continued...

the fact is im too faithful.