nothing so mundane

Saturday, May 27, 2006

trust

every devotion has been taking about trust for the whole of this week.
sometimes i really hope you were there to listen and really pay attention to every single bit of it. dont treat it as another SIAN devotion. cos i think its something worth listening.
sometimes explaining certain things can be so freaking idiotic, but the point is you ever tried doing so. but if you leave the things as it is, the doubts shall always remain, and MORE DOUBTS WILL add on.
this is why i always have things to explain. but usually, it was treated as an excuse.
i have lost some of the trust, but im always trying my best to gain it back.
eg. zhong thought i pon school that day, she even said it to the whole class. and right after her lesson, i chase after her and explain the whole thing. she believe it. becos i show that i care, and i did what i ought to do?
now, what about you?
do you think its very complicated and troublesome to do all these things?
if you really think it this way, well.. the doubts and all the question marks shall remain.
i just hate lying to people, and i'll try my best not to hide things from them. cos i want them to trust me without having a single doubts of my actions and words.
can you? im trying hard to trust you? but you are just not doing anything.
its pretty sad. now, you are the one who have the choices. show me everything have been worthwhile.
be frank with me. dont let me be the last to know the truth.
be the one i can really trust.

11.50pm. all or nothing, you decide it all.