nothing so mundane

Tuesday, April 25, 2006

rahh.

i can only type like that for the time being.
cos my blog is so screwed up.
perhaps i'll do smt to it when im really free aye.
so just bear with it for the time being..

erm, a talk which i never expect.
zhong zhong came to me today, wrote a small little note, saying that she wanna talk to me.
so after chemistry test, i went to her office and the talk begin.
it reminded me so much of my sec 1 life.
i had a talk with her 3 yrs ago.
everything is about the same.
but this time round, i said my point of views and stuff.
dont know why. she seems to understand my situation pretty well.
about 70% of her content was so true. so me.
shes right. im a perfectionist.
but come to think again, that was me so long ago.
now, i no longer want everything to be perfect.
eg. family, result, friends and so much more.
i think it in a different way now. expect much lesser than before.
so many many advices she gave me.
i prefer to talk to her like that.
rather than she beat around the bush. cos if she did that in class, everyone knew that shes referring to me.
perhaps it time to stop some of my foolish doings and do the right thing at the right time.
people that has been with me for these past few years would know what im talking about.
thats me, a person who need someone to knock me constantly to stay "awake".
she reminded me the promise ive made, to my mum.
yes, what have i been doing all these while? its time to reflect. time to wake up.
those people, those scenerios she said was so true.
how much do they worth? that was the question she kinda asked.
speechless, i went total silent. stuck.
she may be an irritant to so many people, but i really got to thank her for the talk today.
i know i was really bad to her. my attitude and stuff. that was what i was told by chermaine wee. alright. i'll kept to the promise ive made, and not be like that. but provided she dont provoke me.
what should i say now.
i must not be that STUPID PERSON SHE MENTIONED.
dont know how long will this last.
anyhows, you guys will agree with me if you were there at the talk.
shall stop and makan.

IM IN LOVE WITH THE PEPPERMINT CHIPS ICE-CREAM WITH BREAD NOW. peppermint, the nice memory behind...

7.03pm. once again, you degrade yourself.