Wednesday, March 15, 2006
contradictingsometimes, i wish we werent close.sometimes, i wish we were closer.i thought when we werent that close, we might not understand each other well enough. then theres less for us to explain.but times when we are not close, i wish you can be there. im telling myself not to expect much. im telling myself not to care so much.i did it.i dont know how many times must i tell you that im tired about everything.for all the things that ive done, i wanted you to show me its worth it.but each time, its just disappointment after another.i hope you wont make me a fool, but you did.i dont know if we should continue, or maybe we should just end everything.the one who holds the answer, its you.new thing is always not as good as the old. i will not throw it away.but if you want me to do that, i will try to let everything go. i promise.12.14pm longing for the smile of yours.
