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who say "chim" blog are not nice to read,
im actually in love with one of my friend's blog.
not for the reason it is chim, but somehow.. its really unique in a way.
and felt nice after reading it.
and after reading it, i felt like blogging too(:

what a day.
prefectorial board almost had WW-III just now,
but luckily.. it didnt.
i really dont want it to happen.i guess none wants it aye.

for the next three days, we gonna have adam khoo's talk.
there will be no school! no remedial!
and we gonna stay in school till 9pm everyday..
i wonder if its good? hahaha
we'll know it tmr..

ohh well, im listening to this piece of nice music now, ballade pour adeline.
peaceful(:
im not those very "classic" person, but somehow, im really into classical like canon-in-d and loads more..are they consider as classical? i dunno. but i really love them. hahah

thanks for your presence.
times when im down, you are the one, the one who is always there.
you might not know, but you are that someone who make me a differnt person.
you might not know i am actually referring to you.
but yes, you are the one.
its not the matter of how long we have know each other.
you make me realised that time is not important.
sincere, truthful and innocence, you are.
dedicated to the every single one of you..

9.55pm. wish you were here.

2 weeks. its coming to an end.
shirley is coming back. and im looking forward. haha.

i told you im giving in to you day by day.
and i did. but its a pity that you werent there today.
i really wanna have a nice talk with you.
well, i ended up sleeping.
ohh please, i slept for like 2 hrs ytd. *yawn yawn

had lots of thoughts today.
but somehow, from what you did. and the way you look at me.
i know, im just thinking abt "nothing".

had a really nice time chatting with st aye.
erm,capricorns and virgos can get along very well! (quite true aye.)
im watching campus superstar right now!
so shall stop here. HAHA

8.27pm. evonnieSten(:

its a wrong thought of mine,
im even wondering why did i still care as much.
i realised, people are not satisfy with things because they think that they are not getting enough or somehow they think that this world is unfair to them.
just dont expect everything to be the way you want it to be, expect some "unexpected things", perhaps this will make you feel better.
ohh well, ytd was the day when everyone "wasnt feeling too good". at least for me, and some of those that i heard of and concerned.
its over. but time for appreciation.
a thank you that i didnt howda express out.
but i know im giving in to you day by day.

that alarm rang again. its time to go.

12.13am. s.f.l<3

im duper tired.
perhaps blogging can keep me awake? hahaha
people start telling me that PARANOID is the best word to describe me now.
yes, i am. ESP WHEN THERE ARE SO MANY TESTS.
and i look stressed. and yes, i am.
just went to read your blog. you, the lucky one. hahaha.
it motivated me quite abit cos we are facing sorta the same kind of problems.
please, now that im alrd dying..
tell me, how can i survive till O's.
and my chinese can get such f mark. no, i didnt fail.
but nothing seems to be good now lahh.
ohhh. HELP!
some are not making PEACEFUL DAYS for me.
i felt really bad to say this, but please.
i really cant stand it anymore.
gotta talk to my dearest KITTY CAT MUM NOW. hahahah(:

10.52pm. caught in the middle.

its often regrets and more regrets.
its always dissatisfaction and grumbles.
just dont break the empty heart when you fails to fill it.

10.27pm. s.f.l<3

weekend was damn f bad.
except for the time i went to CH and spent with my family.
AND.. MARINA SOUTH!!(:
w,wq, and r.. THANKS SO MUCH. hahaha

i went to read your blog, perhaps some things are meant to be like that.
no matter how hard we tried to stop, but it still happened.
nobody wish to, but what matter the most, is you and i know, we both had ever tried doing smt. we saw the effort, we thought for each other.
it may not turn out be the best,
but well, theres always obstacles trying to stop us along.
i dunno howda tell you, cos im actually quite used to things been like that,
NO MATTER HOW MUCH I WISH ITS NOT.
lets hope we'll find a way out one day..

please, i really hate to say it,
the very last thing that i ever want to do it,
but if you really want.
i shall just prove it to you in time to come.
oh man, i promise it to be the last time.
your indecisive character makes me grow quite abit. really.

11.56pm. love unselfishly.

damn all those rumours!

please leave me and my friend alone.


5.12pm. time to say goodbye

ask yourself, when was the last time you ask about me?

ask yourself, are you the one who im still confiding to?

ask yourself, where has the feeling gone to?

ask yourself, are you treating me fair enough?

ask yourself, where did i stand in your heart?

these 5 questions.

9.41pm. misread.

time for blogging.
valentine's day was ytd.
so i dun have to wish you guys again huh. HAHA.
thanks for all those presents.(:
regardless of what you guys gave me, i appreciated loads.
cos that shows that i was loved by you people.
anyw. i will get present for someone..
SHE is the one who has been giving me present for so many many SPECIAL DAY.
but somehow i gave her nothing. i felt so guilty.
thanks my friend, it was really nice having you with me, though we are not very close. HAHAH
got to say ytd was quite pathetic.
went to mum's shop to work for her lahh.
at least, i got paid. hahaha. so rare ya!
didnt have dinner. today got no recess):
stupid total defence!
but mrs elizabeth choy had kinda touched me.
i cant tell out how was i touched by her.
just felt nice listening to HER. not the rest lahh. hahah
ohh well, got to clarify thing here.
please, im not attached. so no more bull shit from those irritant yea.

its obvious enough that heaven was playing tricks on me.
when i ask you out.you gave a reason for not wanting to go.
but when i gave up that wishful idea of mine,you want to go out with me again.
and when i saw your incoming call,i really dunno shld i feel happy or just FORGET IT lahh.
that happen all the time.
so now this is the thing i would do,
if i have the time, i will go.but if i dun have, so sorry yea.
im not like last time, when i would pay all price just dying to go out with you.
thats how i treasure every moment with my friend.
but now, let god decide for me yahh. hahaha

had a wonderful afternoon with the 3 adults.
one was quite of noisy, so i kinda show that stupid face to her. hahaha
so now, when i had someone to tell me whats gonna happen..
should i still go on or hold back?
please, i really want you to make me think that everything is worthwhile becos of you.
i still feel think you are hesitating.
that kills me alright.

9.40pm. i love "my valentine", that song lahh(:
http://www.metrolyrics.com/lyrics/16250/Martina_McBride/My_Valentine

when i find that you are no longer someone i need.
you are no longer the person i would describe as i cant survive without.
a word can be saved from this moment. cos i wanna hear no more.

it was really a nice song.
cos the lyrics was so beautiful that i must say.

Kings Of Convenience - Misread

If you wanna be my friend
You want us to get along
Please do not expect me to
Wrap it up and keep it there

The observation I am doing could
Easily be understood
As cynical demeanour
But one of us misread...
And what do you know
It happened again

A friend is not a means
You utilize to get somewhere
Somehow I didn't notice
friendship is an end
What do you know
It happened again

How come no-one told me
All throughout history
The loneliest people
Were the ones who always spoke the truth
The ones who made a difference
By withstanding the indifference
I guess it's up to me now
Should I take that risk or just smile?

What do you knowIt happened again
What do you know

8.18pm. to see you again.

i was feeling real bad these two days.
and i guess i know why that "im like that" for the whole of this week.
but im sure that place that i went to just now, has already solved most of my problems.
im gonna welcome next week.
HOPEFULLY NO MORE MC FOR NEXT WEEK . hahah
just hope everything had gone gone gone!
please, let me have peace and let me sleep well.
i wanna have a sweet sweet dream of that sweet sweet person.(:
TODAY IS CHINESE VALENTINE's DAY.
and the day after tomorrow is VALENTINE's DAY .
so HAPPY VALENTINE'S to everyone!
have a duper sweet day alright!(:

7.27pm. wish that i could say

now i finally understand why the electricity bill got so high becos of me.
okay. SLEEPING WITH THE LIGHTS ON. for some stupid reason.
and thinking of bathing when im cooking my breakfast and blogging.
Ohh, im GREEDY? or fickle-minded in some things.. i dun care la.
but im trying hard to stop it alr yahh.hopefully, this month bill wont get rocket high.

i was trying hard talking to mum last night.
as in making her understand what im trying to say.at that wanton mee stall.
omg, the icekachang stall beside suck! i was hoping smt better la.
but their"corn" was alr bad sour! eee! dun wanna think abt it alr.
anyw. due to her headache, i dun feel like saying more..
so after i sent her home,ensure that she take that POWRFUL medicine and get some sleep, i went home.
and it seems like mum and i had switched position.
cos im like doing smt what a mother shld do. HAHA
i dun mind at all. cos afterall, no one knows what to do if they really got a bad headache btr me. i know exactly how to stop it. BELIEVE IT? hahah.
alright, TO YOU, i hope i can do smt btr in order to satisfy you la.
i will try. its my attitude?
anyw. back to that friend which i was saying in my previous blog.
SHE SAID SMT WHICH IS SO UNTRUE AGAIN.
im not angry la. but i just wanna know whats all her stupid doings up to?
yea, perhaps she not someone who worth us doing so much.
im sick of it.

WL score not bad for his O's.
okay okay. wayne my real life brother, did NOT do badly for his O's lahh.
i must write his big name here. if not.. he will OEI me again. hahaha.
i have been calling him WAYNE LIM all the while.
i enjoyed doing that lahh. hahaha
anyw, mum was quite happy about it.
yes, he is going to his temasek poly. and his dream course.
CONGRATS yahh. hahaha
and to those that i was also concerned about, you guys did well too.
im GLAD. hahah. ESP FOR YOU okay? hahah <<
you wont get to see it anyw, im typing for fun okay.
im just trying to be a retard here(:
okay, im was quite MOTIVATED BY what i saw ytd.
guess its not too late to start..

ANYW, i must really say sorry to DAWN AND JOANNE.
dawn, lets have it another time yahh. (:
joanne, happy buying shoe with your cousin.
dun try calling me or anything until 12 pm today.
cos my handphone is still not with me at the moment.
sorry for any inconvenience cause.(:

11.12pm .when we are ending this.

I WANT IT THAT WAY

You are my fire, the one desired
Believe when I say
I Want It That Way
but we are two worlds apart
Can't reach to your heart
When you say i want it that way

Chorus:
Tell me why
Ain't nothing but a heartache
Tell me why
Ain't nothing but a mistake
Tell me why
I never wanna hear you say
I want it that way

Am I your fire, the one desired
Yes i know it's too late
But i want it that way

Repeat Chorus

Now I can see that we've fallen apart
from the way that it used to be
No matter the distance
I want you to know that deep down inside of me

You are my fire
The one desire
You are, you are, you are, you are
Don't wanna hear you say

Repeat Chorus 2X

Cause I want it that way

told you im addicted to this song.yes. an old old song. can even be classified as an oldies?
one reason that i will like a song> lyrics.
without a good lyrics, do you think it can be call a song?
without fail, every song that i like always express what i wanna say.
so i tend to change my FAVOURITE song often.
i know you will say im fickle-minded. well,having a change in my favourite song doesnt mean i DUN LIKE that song yea. so please dont get the wrong idea.
im saying this to you. the one who say "huh? got so many favourite song, then is not called Favourite song liao what". SEE THIS. get what i meant now? hahahh

grandma really love me.she just cut the fruits for me again.
without fail, every night and everyday after school..
she will ensure that i eat the fruits she bought okay!
i really dont know howda say how much i LOVE her!(:

anyway, i really dunno whats going on.
you are our friend. and a friend whom we really regarded you as.
but why did you do this to us.
telling everyone the same thing. something which is not true.
yes. you are really there when im down.
so when you are sad or discourage, im here.
but if you doesnt appreciate, please dont use stupid method and shoo us off.
if we are here for you, we will always be, regardless of what you do.
but just wanna tell you, if you are trying hard to attract our attention.
you got it all! but what actually did you want for us?
if you dont help urself, how are we gonna help you?
all da best friend. i will still try to help you.
but please, no more spreading of those UN-true rumours.
it will be alot appereciated by me.


i got to go again.
anyw that dream i had ytd suck totally lahh. rahh.


9.05pm. sometime i need you, everytime i miss you.

wasnt feeling too good today.
THANKS DAWN. i dunno why i told you that much.had a feeling that you dont really understand what was i blahing abt.but thanks anyhows.
i dunno why i thought so much of some things today..
i realised that things arent the way im thinking all along.
i got alot to say, but i felt its pointless for me to repeat.
let nature takes its own course, i wouldnt wanna bother much.
STUDIES IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN ANY OTHER THINGS I GUESS.FOR NOW?
yea, zhong zhong came to ask if im okay today.
well, too bad that she dont read my blog.
i didnt say much though.
but i guess she thought i got some incurable illness? HAHA.


i promise i wanna sleep early today.
if not im gonna miss lesson again. HAHA.
i really dun feel like sleeping during class time..
had a dream last night.
somehow, i came to know i was deceiving myself all along.
im actually thinking about someone who i thought im not thinking about.
and im not thinking about someone who i thought i actually thought of.
sound complicated. read a few more time to understand lahh! HAHA
that dream ended half-way.
all thanks to my coughing, which ruin my sweet sweet dream.
lets hope for a better dream today.

its time to go.(:

5.15pm. do you think you are fair to me all along?

ADDICTED TO "I WANT IT THAT WAY" again. ((:

SICK. im sick.
someone concluded that though i appear to look fit, but IM NOT.
well, do not judge a book by its cover what! hahah
okay, my voice please come back! please please please.
i need it for many many things. hahah
anyw, i didnt go school today.
had time to rest awhile yahh.
doctor said" you got to rest for the whole day okay?"
but, i didnt.
thanks to all my teachers.
and was told i got 2 compo to do.
kill me or whatever, everything seems to be ENDLESS.
i cant lead that life of mine when im in sec 2.
i got the time to go town after sch, and have my ICE KACHANG at night.
that was all in the past.
i dont even have the time to sleep like a normal person.
opps, time to go.
yea, theres also time limit for blogging now.

somehow, you seems someone that i completely dunno.
im satisfied of little things you did.
but i got nothing out of that little.
you did nothing.

10.06pm. i want it! (my dreamland, where perfect exist)

OMG.
i realised some of my posts just disappeared with NO REASON.
i didnt delete it. I SWEAR. cross-cross. hahahah
anyw. good in a way.
all the unhappy things is now HISTORY.
say hello to the KIND ones.
and bye bye to all the devils.(:

time to do my surprised HWs..

11.18pm. COLOURS OF THE WIND(:

it is still raining.
fifteen minutes ago.. i told shirley that i will "pom pom" very soon.
but here i am, infront of the com. blogging(:
yea. stupid rain got me all wet.
hmm. didnt know why i slept at 5 this morning.
was just flipping through the newspaper and stuff.
PERFECT 10 entertained me quite awhile.
their songs brought back much of my memories.
one eg. A THOUSAND MILES>>> "WHITE CHICKS"!
yes. my cutie EX-partner will just do that "stupid action whenever they hear that song.
so.. didnt know why. i was also doing it when i heard it just now. hahahahah
can anyone please tell me the REMEDY of not wanting to sleep easily..
i can just sleep anywhere.
conditionS> NOT TOO WARM , NOT TOO NOISY.
anyw. think i have to stop here.
queenfel need some help i guess.

ohh. my unhappy post was just referring to someone.
definitely not any of my friends.
LAX ppl.
bad days are over.(:
im walking the brand new part of my life.


11.08pm. rainDOWN

KINDA TOO LATE..
BUT STILL I MUST SAY..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TING!

it shld actually be a short post.
but just out of the sudden, i just got that urge to write more.
ohh, went to watch "I AM NOT STUPID 2" the day before ytd.
my eyes was super duper RED after everything.
and everyone was looking at me as though im an alien lahh.
but that wasnt the fact, my eyes was red not because of crying yah.
was because i sleep less than 5hrs per day. or even LESSER..
anyway, that show was really very nice.
very funny but yet emotional.
i didnt waste my 9.50 leh. HAHA.

had a long long talk with mum last night.
still the same topic we talk about..
but i realised some of my thinking just changed so much.
my behaviour, my attitude.
i dunno if its good? but to me.. somehow, its good in SOME ways.
anyway, theres more to say, but we were just too tired.
so went to bed ard 3++.

its never too late for me to discover something abt you.
at least you may not know what i knew.
somehow, i really depise you..
okay, i dun wish to say more than that for now..


ITS TIME FOR ME TO GET SOME SLEEP!


1.02am. ZzZ