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last post.
and i say goodbye to 2005 and everything.
welcoming my 2006.
like what everyone predicted.
c'mon. i lost. HAHA.
anyway. they are leaving me tonight.
my eyes are wet when i sleep.
i felt really sad.
i dont need any shoulder.
cos theres something who has already comforted me very much.
cos there are ppl who really supported me when im down.
thanks so much.
people only only appreciate things when its gone.
im the best eg.
things were already confirmed last night.
after they left. i wonder how often can we meet up after that.
nothing is more important now.
i had only one choice left.
walk into the brand new 2006 and not look back.
once again. i wanna tell chermaine.
my words didnt change at all.
its like what ive told you last year.

regrets and more regrets.
but its through regrets where we grow.
goodbye.

lending me a listening ear is satisfying.
i love you man!

off to aljunied.

4.04pm

my promise. 31/12/05. lots and lots of promises.
dont worry. i will keep it no matter what.
you will see everything on 1/1/06.
i cant wait to end 2005 here.
CAN I COUNTDOWN NOW man!
i wanna thanks mum for all the things.
for these few days.well, i dont mind if its better?
ohh. aunt might wanna shift back that CHOA CHU KANG.
i dunno if i should be happy? but i know my heart wasnt.
well, theres more to plan..
cos it also mean my poor com will also be shifted.
all my songs!
shirley might also be leaving after CNY.
so many ppl is leaving now.
should it be a good news? i dont so yea.
high chances that my blog will end 31/12/05.
my 2006. i will be waiting!

time for my song. always my favourite. COLLIDE.
my fav..
dont stop here, i lost my place,im close behind.

alright. no more of asking of those idotic fcuking qns.
let me spend my christmas peacefully.
M, A and Frs.. i didnt say i dont want to listen to you guys.
but i guess, im big enough.
thanks for all those precious words. appreciated.
dont look into my eyes. i felt so sorry. remorseful for what i did to you guys.
not a single word for today yea. keep everything to tmr.
let my night be quiet.
i got alot more to learn. HAHA
since i know it alr, i have alr prepared for it.
not to worry.
im perfectly fine.
spare me some time to take off all those fcukin business.
its not as though my heart is bleeding non-stop? not that exaggerate alright.
i can be emotional at times. but trust me, it alr stopped ytd.
even if i want to be more emotional, i cant.
i know what not worth it and stuff, just stop saying alr.
you guys know how to appreciate can alr yahh.
yaya. time for my green bean soup.
dont make me delete and re-type everything again. this should satify you ppl yea.
ohh. i guess i will not be gg esplanade with you. dont ask me why.
i wanna sleep lah. HAHA

SEE IT ALR? dont post me with any qns.
stated clear enough i guess.
im tired.
thanks for the concern;)

oh yea. FOR PEOPLE WHO READ THIS.
that mee huan kuey stall that i used to go almost everyday is back!
HAHA. guess you guys like me right? MISS THE CHILLI.
its at the coffeeshop near to that " new hawker", 1st stall from right.
mee huan kuey freak like me. go eat kaes! HAHA.
make your soup red! LOL.

song know me the best: 5.51pm

MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS!
oh well, indeed yesterday was merry enough!
town was so crowded.
i wanna thank that person who gave me that bottle of spray can.
it lasted me for that goodness 3hrs?
the regret ws not buying more spray cans and join in the fun yahh.
those boys still prefer to hide themselves in Heeren.
the nine of us watched NARNIA after the countdown.
alright, i slept. so i missed some parts.
that was show was okay lah. but got to say that last part was touching.
not that type that i would really like yahh.
oh. thanks that kind taxi uncle for letting 5 big kids to squeeze into that cab.
im too tired to even make it to mum's friend chalet though mum will pay for that taxi fare.
mum said something ytd. okay, maybe that day will come soon. i hope.
got to apologise to wai yin here, it did rain this morning.
dont blame me, i can predict the weather. HAHA
i guess you had already polluted the water in east coast ytd.
so please show mercy to the one in sentosa.
well, theres always other time yahh.

thanks for informing.
im not gonna be affected by what mabel had posted in her blog about what she felt and stuff.
in fact, i got to thank her for reminding.
okay. go ahead to say im heartless towards her. indeed i am.
but i feel nothing wrong treating unworthy people like her.
for all those words who is meant for insulting or humiliating?
i find that redundant. trying to compare my background?
im satisfy with my freedom life, what more should i need.
its through her blog, i got learn things that i was kept in the dark.
im utterly disappointed by what she did only.
no point revealing out her name i guess, its obvious enough.
well, i dont wish to argue with whatever mabel had said.
for who's sake? for someone who is already gone long ago?
that was indeed a nice christmas present from her.

ENJOY CHRISTMAS!

HAHAHA:12.08pm

24 hrs to go.
PEOPLE PLEASE COUNT DOWN.
guess i'm gonna be alone this year.
yes, i can get alone with such great opportunity.
but well. who knows, you might just see me in town tomorrow.
wait. once i get well from my fever, i'll be as wild as ever.
ohh yes. my temp just shoot up again.
up down. up down.
okay. it will be great to have a bowl of scallop porride infront of me now.
cos i guess i just digested that wanton mee. LOL

went out with "cousin"? nah, "friend" lah ytd.
like what ive said, youre not to blame for my fever.
cos im late. so i guess im supposed to rush there even though that rain was so BIG.
i never run like that mad before. i run across that road. oh my. almost slipped though. HAHA
i get so freaking wet.
i deserve it yahh.
3 hrs of freezing in that cinema. i survive!
well. i can sleep without a blanket in an air-con room. so i guess 3 hrs is nothing.
but i get so ps. cos we took that last row. my fault again.
anyway. i went home with a smile, you get what i meant huh? HAHA.
im still giving a big smile to that com while blogging right now. HEE.
you should understand yahh??


again? fcuk!fate decides it all. while the song explain my all.

ADVANCE MERRY CHRISTMAS! im wishing you ppl again later and tmr! HAHA


HOHOHO:12.19am

i dont know how shld i describe myself now.
but i just hope everything would be fine later.
cos i know you are excited and happy about it, according to what you told me.
thus, i really dont wanna spoil it.

have more faith in me though im kinda disapponting.
maybe i shall go according to what you've planned.
give me a few days grace. and everything will resume as what it suppose to be.

its 10.30 alr. time to get started.


its not satisfying:10.30am

what a day.
i spent it just like that.
its coming to an end soon.
i dont want to end it so fast.
what can i do?
to make it special.
to make it meaningful.
just when everyone is not home,
i didnt make good use of it.

oh my, im wondering if theres any nicer movie now?
other than KING KONG?
if not i really have to torture my butt for that 3 hrs+.

i really got very addicted to that song as expected.
why am i not concentrating in whatever things i do.
tell me what should i do now.
im sure you gonna laugh if you see it.
but well, im really stuck.

dont turn off the lights: 8.47pm

昨天今天明天 -候湘婷 & 吴克群

though its in chinese, but this is one of the song i love the most for now.
why do i say for now, cos i dun know when will i stop liking it that much.
no one can predict anything.
but definitely, i will like it for very long.
alot of things changes without you knowing.
i hope everything remain like this.
i dont know how should i thank my darling MOONFLOWER.
but today was really better than any other day yahh.

saw yolanda today. i missed it.
i still didnt get to say hi.
maybe thats call NO FATE?
i dont know. leave all to heaven.
thers nth i can do.. HAHA

i need alot of courage to do alot of stuff. for now. i hope for a break. SLEEPING TIME! leave all to tomorrow.

nights my dear. nights my world. nights to all. :)

misery or happy, i dun know: 2.07am

STAY, by MAURICE WILLIAMS & THE ZODIACS

Stay! Aah, just a little bit longerPlease!
Please-please-please-please
Tell a-me you're goin' to
Well, your daddy don't mind
And your mammy don't mind
If we have another danceYeah, just a-one more time
Oh, won't you stay just a little bit longer
Please, let me hear you say you will(Say you will!)
Won't you press your sweet lips to mine
Won't you say you love me, all of the timeStay!
Oh yeah, just a little bit longerStay!
Aah, just a little bit longerPlease!
Please-please-please-please
Tell a-me you're goin' to
Come on, come on, come on and stay, yeah-yeah-yeah
Come on, come on, come on and stay, yeah-yeah-yeah
Come on, come on, come on and stay, oops
Come on, come on, come on and stay, my-my


i just wanna you to stay.
and i just hope to stay.
too bad if you dun understand. HAHA


BRAND NEW DAY:12.13pm

i just wanna close my eyes and let it pass.

I GAVE UP.


you never fail to break it.

02:43:06
you flat my handphone.
just maintain this. and everything will be perfect.
not that you didnt GAN DONG WO but just that i changed to someone who is not easily GAN DONG. i did see your effort.
anyway. told you. FATE is important. believe me now?

i wanna thanks joanna for today.
luckily you were with me, if not i will die yea. HAHA
i guess you have the same thought as me right?
okay. i'll be GOOD just for today. HAHA
thanks for the sweet also. its really SWEET. HAHA

just hope you complain lesser.
try to put yourself in my shoe. and understand.
if you still wanna scold and nag at me this way.
too bad. you will be disappointed, really.
cos i have my own thinking.
i cant agree to everything you say alright.
i guess i still have the choice to choose who i wanna mix with.
where i wanna go, just leave it all to me.

bgsd:1.28am

107th post! finally..
there will be lots of work today.
cos i'll be workng with the new girl , joanna.
i can really get up so early man! *clap clap*
NO ONE IS ONLINE yea..
all the lazy piggy still sleeping right away.
so i guess i shall come back again sometime later as someone gonna use the com now.
OFF TMR!
however i dont think my plan can works.
so i should might as well forget about everything.

when you say nothing at all: 8.40am

something that i really like to control of.. FATE.
its playing me too much.
i got so angry of myself.
but i can do nothing, nothing at all.
everything seems so impossible.
why?

saw xm's message and missed call today.
im kinda surprised.
as i expected..
other than asking some stupid fcuking question.
what else can you ask me of. its nothing else again.
and other than disappointed, i dun know what else to say.
from the way you typed,had already tell me everything.
thanks so much yea. i wanna thank you for giving me an answer.
at least i dont have to wait again. you explain it all.
since it like that, i dont see any need for me to think of the past.
perhaps everything just end here for now.
lets not talk about anything.
you should be none that i should be concerned of right.

CJL asked me out ytd.
due to my work. i didnt go.
frankly, even if i didnt work. i dont think i would go.
i know im very straightforward.
i just want to say, you can regard me of anything you want.
however, its none that i would be concerned of yahh.
go be your good girlfriend.
i just want to say.
there are something that you cant hide forever.
i just hope i didnt waste my messages telling you so much.
its not a scolding.
but at least i think i need to remind you.
its up to you to seek my advices.
dont expect too much from me either.
and i guess. i stated everything crystal clear ytd.
you should be able to understand yes. if not forget it.


time for my 100plus+gin+ice.
pure GIN without ice can be as hot and nice. HAHA
anyway. i really hope i can beat that 7 cups challenge given by stephanie.
well. its a matter of time. i promise to drink all 7 if you buy me that big bottle. HAHA


broken and tired:12.39am

people who never work will never gets to understand.
wait till you work..
you'll know how much you love your bed and your pillow.
i feel like just sleeping. and nothing else.
and when you work, you'll get to realise the time spending with your dear ones is actually precious. no matter with who. is really not enough.

i guess i making myself free after this week.
i need time!
everything seems not enough.
and after my off that day..
oh my. i already start missing my NON-WORKING days alot.

and now.. im so into finding back all the OLD songs that i used to like.
definitely. my opinion and feeling towards some songs had changed alot.
but i still like most of them. they bring back lotsa of memories.

a cup of 100 plus+gin+ice can already make my night so nice.
what more should i ask for?okay. perhaps just someone who i can hold on to.
it really can get pretty empty. for now. my bolster is my best companion.
i still prefer absolute citron+coke+ice..

oh wait..i must stop here. in case, im not talking to senses again.
IM NOT DRUNK alright. just having serious headache.
i just need some sleep. im dead tired.

why am i having that kind of feeling:1.20am

time flies. really really fast.
thats you just want to stop it.
really stop the time for that minute, that second.

i now know why ppl told me pride & prejudice was nice.
yes. watched with my darling MOONFLOWER WORM.
i would say. its the feeling that it gave me .. its the last part only yahh.
another than that, everything was "normal".
ohh. and i regretted not using the popcorn to throw at that woman infront of me.
just dont let me see her again.
i promise. to use my phone infront of her man.

well. town is not that big afterall.
is small actually.. i can say it can take you less than 8 hrs to walk every NICE part of it.
anyw.. lemon and mango ice-cream can be a duper nice combination. must try yea!
that ice-cream shop at lido dere. service was great also. HAH

some happy moment are meant to be kept.
so i shall not share.
or you can say that im lazy?

if only i can do more than that.
seriously, im not good enough rightt.


OTHER THAN NAG.. is still NAG.
but well im so glad they didnt scold me even though i lied.
but that makes me feel bad.

tell me when:1147 pm

UPON MY DEAR DIVINIA'S REQUEST,
IM BLOGGING RIGHT NOW.
ohh well. she misses school much yahh.
what she meant was "the people".
for me.. not really.
cos you know whats my job in school right.
and perhaps without some damn students..
my life can be so much better.
why should i miss.
futhermore.. i got to see those that i wanted to see.
so give me a better reason why should i miss.
and talking about SCHOOL..
i saw WONG CC just now.
guess he so "shuang" la
someone massaging his leg..
his expression is like.. GOSH!
and i was wondering why he find a guy to do it for him.
thats like WEIRD.
but cant blame him.
cos since when is he that "NORMAL"?
its raining..
and charmant is still at east coast..
POOR LITTLE ONE!
and im at home eating my RED APPLE.. HAHA

im out of control:5.52pm

back from work.
had durian! so im stink with DURIAN smell.
nah. shldnt say stink. cos durian is my favourite food yahh.
lucky no one with me. if not. i'll definitely put my mouth directly at that person nose and make that person faint okay! WHAHAHHA
had to wake up ard 7++ tmr.
and no off on sunday since im taking off on monday or tuesday?
my life seems to be more busy now.
shld i like or not?
i dunno. i just know im tired.
hmm. someone told me im very naughty once.but im much better now.
but really. given a chance. i hope i can be that naughty again .
dun ask me why.perhaps i just wanna give people that impression im NOT GOOD.
people who know me for very long, should know why i have this stupid and mad thinking.

i just hope that person is me.
that whoever you are saying or referring to, i hope is me.
make my life happier.
im just TOO MAD okayy.


be my soccer: 12.21 am

someone told me go sentosa sure got tanned.. EVEN when theres no sun.
thats amazing huh!
im still RED? i hope i can just soak myself in an ICE POOL!
guess will start peeling soon.

after working for days..
i realised some things are really not that simple.
COMPLICATED.
i still prefer to stay home and slack.
but becos of some heartless freak. i work.
i'll just treat this working period as TRAINING.
theres so much i really got to learn.
ohh.. DAWN KOH! hope you still remember our deal!
and I MISS YOU real lots sia. HAHA


i really hate it when you shut me up.
why must you did that on purpose.
especially when you know i really care.
give me that kind of expression that i hate so much.
am i wrong?
if thats the case, i will not even ask one word that concern you.
to that someone who like to go against me.

i cant be what im not: 11.46am

TODAY WAS GREAT?
alright. hope you people enjoy today.
though theres no court, but at least with the little things we have.. WE HAVE FUN!gotta ask a very good question here..
why do we get tanned when we see no "sun" lahh?
okay. but the thing is we all got kinda burnt?
i know my face was red? but i can say.. it wont last alright.
so many things we played today...
so many "free shows" we watched today.
so many things we talk about today.
just hope everything today didnt disappoint you guys.
cos joanne and i planned it weeks ago. HAHA
after that.. we went seoul garden at taka.
of course, we had fun there.
then was movie.
FINALLY. i watched something after so long..
cos GOAL was my last movie.
AeonFlux was rather nice.
but its all expected lahh.
with chan ping. that movie was of course "more funny".
then here i am blogging..
sorry yea? i short-cut alot of parts, cos im really tired.
and it will be too long if i blog the whole thing yahh.

and wearing the same shirt as chermaine was purely coincidence.
though the pant look similar, but not the same. not as i expected also.
i changed my green-tee to the black one this morning. if not same again.
and the slipper we brought it together long time ago..
so hope you people dont get the wrong idea. im sure you all know yahh.
perhaps she just feel weird and stuff, but like what chan ping had said.
its kinda of a honoured stuff to wear the same tee or smt with ur frens. i agree.
i will be more than happy to wear exactly the same top to bottom with my frens lah.
but of course, in this case..
just hope it will not happen again? HAHA.

im tired and pc enough. shall stop here then.

im feeling so hot and cold at the same time: 12.58 am

Happy Birthday Mabel and Jas!
be glad alright..
after my long tiring hours of working..
the very first minute of my blogging was about you two.
one in Florida and the other one i dunno whr?
but just hope you guys enjoy your bdae.
spend it with ur darlings yahh. HAHA

finally. settled down? i mean my job.
one good thing.. it kept me busy the whole day.
dont even have the time to think about stuff.
was quite not bad yahh.
must thanks CINDA so much yea? lucky shes there.. if not i cant imagine my day yahh.

i guess tmr will be another TIRED day.
and finally. we are going out.
hope its fun and nothing bad happens.
and the WE = the whole of bball team of course.
pray for the sun. hope all happiness. :)

to people out there.. people like my dear MAD PEANUT, CHOCOLATE MILK and lots.. TOO ALL lahh. im just so into this word "fate". probably becos of this movie "The Classic", so i talk about fate and stuff. but to really think abt it. FATE is rather important to all stuff. you think without fate, we can meet?
agree huh? so yes. fate is really that POWER sia.

saw smt from the calendar today.. which i thought was rather meaningful.
LOVE IS ALL ABOUT TRUST.
so i hope.. to people i love..
please just dont let the "trust" between us disappear.
make it last till the very end alright.

i dunno what is happening to me.
im speaking not like myself..
please dont get pissed off yahh.
forgive me for those rubbish words. HAHA

and ya. since you people said it.. the most. i will specify all the names in my blog..
or rather who im referring to at times okay. but of course, not always. if not people will have the wrong idea of me. please understand.

msn is too lousy. cant sign in. too bad, FATED TO SLEEP now.
nites people!
i miss.

im just sinking deeper: 1.28 am

when im trying so hard, but still you dont.
i felt so useless.
tell me why do i feel that moment of pain.
tell me when will this not be there again.
tell me why is everything like that.
tell me why do heaven knows so much.
tell me what is that that i dont know.
tell me all.


*MAD COCONUT says "a new day of tomorrow,i hope there will be no sorrow"

anyway.people coming back tomorrow.. cya soon! guess im just so fated to airport.
im going there AGAIN..

ohh. actually there are people who understand all that ive posted. awesome people, why dont you all just tell me earlier. appreciated lots yea. :)

i just got addicted to this song so much. wanna recommend to all you guys out dere!
"said i love but i lied" , imagine.. i play it the whole night. but be careful yahh. this song can make you just got so into it. and you might just "think" of some stuff while listening to it. how do i know it? cos i experienced it myself.
so people. ENJOY!
just get into that nice sexy voice of MICHAEL BOLTON yahh.

that time thingy got problem yahh. so im not posting according to time yahh. HAHA.
who cares anyway.

somethings just cant be solved. should we just sit here and wait for regrets?
im just afraid that it too late for everything. what can be done then?

why so many people going oversea?!
well. other than a bye? what can i say right..
im not gonna miss anyone cos you guys will come back sooner or later. LOL

i was out for the whole day. and mad coconut just went round MAD-ing today.
doing something good isnt bad at all. haha.

the drum game we had today was so fun. i got to say im not so good at it now yahh.
last time.. i might just make your eye balls roll out. hahh
well. im sure ONE DAY. we will pass that PPR okay! haha.
if only you can be so guai lahh. then i will bring you out yahh. my little brother! haha

all i need was someone who is frank to me. is that too much?
just dont hide anything,dont cover it.
i hated the truth so much when i knew nothing in the first place..
(dont care so much. not be serious. is that what you want. i'll satisfy you with that then. maybe youre just like that.)


all i want..FRANK. HONESTY. TRUST. nothing else



off to watch america's sweethearts.

MAD COCONUT says "said i love you but i lied".

wondering what will tomorrow be like?

MAD COCONUT says "humans are just too greedy. its too difficult to satisfy them,too hard to even try".