Friday, November 04, 2005
woke up at two today. that is already consider as early alright.
cause usually when i sleep late. i wake up even later.
yes. shut my eye exactly at 0530 am.
that is like how nice. after talking to someone.
alright.. my fren say i dun sound good.
i guess fren is right to say that la.
i was really angry ytd. and seems to be angry about everything.
"some people" are really affecting me too much.
and why do i even say somebody.
because is not just ONE PERSON.
please. toturing enough.
furthermore some are my dear ones.
gosh. why are they doing this to me.
so perhaps being alone or living all by myself can be so nice.
really. it really can be.
rather than those hurtful words. which make ppl angry and painful at the same time.
hmm. i decided to train myself to tolerate people even more.
because someone's behaviour is driving me mad.
arhh. when will this put to an end.
i guess whoever who is in my shoe right will be living in despair.
dont i sacrifies enough?
i gave up something which is once important.but that doesnt help.
what for then?
im hate myself for that moment.
i do all the things just to make people happy?
but they cant see my effort.
my struggles. my pain.
someone please understand.
im dying.
nothing seems to help.
yes. i think i lost everything.
im nothing. i realised. NOTHING AT ALL.
for all the things.
i dun deserve a single stuff.
for all those that ive done.
its wasted.
you just dont understand a single bit.
you just dont get it right from the beginning.
SORRY. im am just too lousy.
