Friday, November 11, 2005
im lost.
lost in the world that i shouldnt have come.
well. i guess i should be called parentless.
thats makes no difference.
i have nothing now.
everything is gone.gone to i dont-know-where.
i guess i just have to rely myself and not others anymore.
how i wish. i can just vanish. yes. not anyone else. myself only.
i find everything that i have done has all gone down to the drain.
who could ever understand.
i have to put up a cheerful infront of some people, just to tell that im okay?
but in fact im not. its really hard to put up that mask everyday.
how can everything be solved?
i have realised..even the person that i was hoping to be by my side is not even there when i need a support.
ohh. im such a failure.
so can i not be there when you needs me.
just hope you. the selfish one can go through what im going through now.
well. perhaps like what someone has told me.
he said " survive without a friend" it might be better.
though it might sound ridiculous to some of you.
but go think about it.
among all your friends..
who on earth will really be there?
who on earth are really that trustworthy ones?
who on earth really treat you as friend and dont just make use of you when he or she needed you.
well. i really got nothing to say.
dont feel like thinking about any other thing.
i just hope i can have some
respect.
