Friday, November 18, 2005
i spent my whole day waiting. whole day.
i even missed my breakfast and lunch just to wait.
i really dont mind.i kept to my words.
to
you, if you ever happen to read it.
yes. i dont when will you read this. maybe you find that im silly enough to post this.
i really dont know what is that that you cant tell me.
i thought at this moment, we should be frank to each other.
for so many things, ive have never blame you. i tolerated. i let it go.
of course. i admit that im quite pissed at times and even said those harsh words.
but i really didnt mean it.
i dunno why. i just never really blame you.
maybe i really owe you too much. so i have never push all the blames to you.
i dunno if you believe anot. i even try to blame myself for everything.
i also dunno if its worth to do all the things for you. but i just did.
at this point of time. i really dont care if you appreciate or even care about what i have done.
its always like that. just when we spent the happiest moment together.
something always happen.
this morning.. im still thought that nothing will happen.
but after you told me that thing.. i know something is not right.
i hope it was a prank. but you told me its real.
i really dunno how to react. really puzzled.
why. why is everything always be like this. its always.
i hope to stop it. im trying all my ways. but it still happened.
maybe you might think i really think too much or what.
but one words of yours. its really killing me.
i just hope you can share it with me.
why is that we cant go through.
i hope you really understand my intention.
how long do i still have to wait.
why dont we just face the reality. would it be better.
like what ive said. i mean every words.
dont afraid to be alone. cos i'll be there.
but have you ever gave me a chance?
i hope from now onwards you will..
im serious
