Tuesday, November 29, 2005
guess i wont be going out for the next 8 days.
well.i feel like im just wasting my time everyday doing meaningless things.
thats not what i want for my holiday yahh.
reason is I JUST DONT WANT TO GO OUT TO WASTE TIME.
yes. but going out does not mean im wasting my time.
unless im going out to like study?thats a different thing.
but i also dont know when. well. i will call that person up to "study" with me one of these days yea? HAH
i just need time now..
and maybe to make some changes to my life here and there.
in fact. i thought of making changes constantly. till im satisfy about things ya.
theres really a need to. becos ive been thinking some useless things for 1 year++.
i know i shouldnt be. this fucking thing that ive been thinking had really affected me in so many ways. other than a
regret. i dunno what to say. so its time to put an end. if not.. i will regret MORE when i see my result.
but the best thing i can thought of in order not to make my holidays meaningless is
GET OUT OF SINGAPORE. but less likely yahhh.
i came to know that im actually not that important to you..in any way.
from everything that you did. everything that you thought..i know it
so maybe we should stop being like that.
please dont do whatever thing anymore. you dont know how it affected me.
you might not even realise. but it just torture me lots.
im not sure if you know that im referring to you. but i can possibly write out the big name of yours.
so be it. i do not wish to say anything further. dont even thought of asking me. cos i think i cant tell you this personally. so yahh.
leave me alone. since i can give up those things once. so i can do it again.i just dont want to let down someone. forgive me.to those that find my blog "chim"im so sorry. perhaps you dont understand me well enough.im just not those who write what they do the WHOLE DAY. no offence yahhh.just give a space to let things out. thanks yahhh.
