xanga

msn
friendster
myspace

credits
BRUSHES. 1 2 3 4
BY. shotgun
MISC. imageshack blogger

ARCHIVES
July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 February 2006 March 2006 April 2006 May 2006 June 2006 July 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 December 2006 January 2007 February 2007

♥amanda W
♥ adeline
♥ alicia
♥ audrey
♥ chan ping
♥ charlene
♥ chermaine
♥ deborah(lam)
♥ deborah(lim)
♥ divinia
♥ edlin
♥ fellicia
♥ huiyi
♥ jasmine
♥ jia wen
♥ jian ann
♥ joanneG
♥ kleo
♥ mabel
♥ shili
♥ songying
♥ tabitha
♥ tessa
♥ valerie
♥ vanessa
♥ verillyn
♥ vivian
♥ xiumei
♥ yolanda

the stupid me flared up again.
i'm just so sorry.
i'm jealous?
but i regretted.
i guess i just need some of your love now.
mummy i really love you.
the moment i shouted.
it wasnt good at all.
i went tearing after you left.
i dunno what happened to me.
i hate myself!





yvo called me when i'm still in my dreamland.
that was definitely a wrong time to call me.
i'm too sick to even get up.



needless to say.
i just wanna not think about it.
and i got no mood to do any other thing.
tyb really helped me quite alot this time.
i will be strong.
i will!



new day will always be a new beginning.






i will get up in no time.
once again. i will recover and be what i wanna be

other than,
tired
lethargic
exhausted
ache
sick
i dont know how can i describe myself.
missing sleep for one full day again.
running around.tiring myself.
i'm totally dead.
but other than numbing myself.
i cant think of something better that i can do.
trying to run-away for now.
drinking is not that good i know.
perhaps i shall take joanne chen's advice.
stop my foolishness.
it's enough!





get out of here!!!!!!!!!!

my blog was obviously destroyed yesterday.
full of improper LANGUAGES
but..
i dun mind.
it's really rare that friend can TYPE blog together.
my afternoon was awesome until i met this pervert.
he was actually reading SEX book.
gosh.
it's just my luck to see such an "abnormal" person.
he obviously staring at me and chermaine.
and i mean really staring at us.COUNTLESS of time.
okay.
i guess chermaine didnt feel comfortable?
so we headed home.
hmm.
famous amos cookies was real damn nice!
must try!!!


wat i can say now A MATHS sux!!!




anyway. i had enough of those questioning!
why cant anyone just believe i'm always "alone"?
please. dun spoil my reputation.




i just miss my airport.
my sentosa.
perhaps is the memories that i really MISS.
but perhaps it's gone for good?
it's just memories with you.
so wat if we still get to see each other.
something's missing already..



i'm glad that fell got her wallet back.
i'm just so worried that day.
i dunno why.
it's not my wallet anyway.
perhaps.
i'm just not used to see her drizzling??
anyway.everything is over.
that's what matters the most.
guess she reallly learnt her lesson.


take good care of your wallet.
to anyone out there.




believe it or not.
it's pain to lose something.
especially.
it's something precious.


like how i ALMOST lost my hp moment ago.
i dun really mind about the phone.
but it's my nice mp3 tones.
my fav recordings.
and my darling pictures!
grateful that eileen help me for that moment.
real appreciated.




i just dun understand.
watever i do.
watever i say.
it's not much appreciated or heard as it supposed to be.





i'm just a dumb fool ass. for now.




someone dumb who is still waiting for the only you.
years had really past!
and i really mean the quite sometime.

it's just a damn stupid day with the damn waiting.
i just simply hate that stupid damn bloody ass fucking lousy lag com..(written by chermaine)must be simply greatful to..
famous amous was indeed nice..simply delicious..it only cost me one dollar..so cheap..must go and eat.
hmm. it's time to stop here. cause chermaine is destroying my art piece...fuck your mother..
dots. i think i btr stop here.nooooooo........*groaning for help*

my weekend.
all at one coffeeshop,lor 19.
i enjoyed helping this time.
got to eat all those good stuff.
mum treat me extremely good.
we went turf city for lobster.
whatever her motive is.
i'm just satisfied with the treatment.
but i'm real exhausted!
slept around 5 in the morning.
but the smell of my bed and pillow..
was real damn nice.





it has really been long since i really shop and "go out".
today was fantastic!
i enjoyed the day.
the jokes and the laughter.
i dunno when will it be the next time that will really be "so nice"?
it wouldn't be so nice without you.
but for now. i'm really happy with what i have.
i didnt touch my books at all??
i'm too tired to even bother what happen under the sun.
i just wanna spend my days as carefree as before.
drinking mango tango.
it doesnt matter if we have the same thing.
it's the matter of we like it anot.



snatching things wasnt fun at all.
this week was a stupid week.
i just dun understand why whrever i go.
people just wanna "snatch"?
i would just say.
"take it if you want"
it not that i dun treasure or nothing matters
days with emptiness was bad.
but what the point of holding on to a empty shell.
it pointless.
set it got it free.
enough!





anyway..








i just wanna say you are the best partner i would ever go out with.
thanks for everything:)

sick.
the three noisy people sitting at the back of the class are all sick.
okay.
first was amanda.
then was evonnie.
last was joanne.
not bad huh?
we will be coughing together?
sneezing together?
okay.
amanda's fav fried slice fish beehoon was not bad after all.
kinda nice.
it was really a full one.
only the normal and giant can finish?
small one struggling with her noodle?
i'm bad.
anyway. we took the challenge of the picture thingy.
i believe we can make it.
amanda revealed out all her bu-shuang.
i noe.partly my fault.but dun blame mab and fell.
i think they are unaware of it yes?
forgive and forget!
anyway. jo said i have baby-face?
i'm not mature enough i noe la.
was that a complement or ????
i dunno.
postpone of the A maths was not a bad one.
i got more time to prepare ya.
i'm trying hard alr.
hope my effort will be paid off?



i'm still waiting.
it has been long seen i last chat with huar.
okay. someone that i like to chat with.
cute funny and always make me laugh.






i had alr took the effort to find you.
hope i can really find you.

i seriously gave LOH that face.
seriously had no idea wat she's teaching?
i'm stupid?
idiot?
i dunno.
crap.
but i hate when she was lazy to teach??
okay. ask your peers to teach?
wat is this!
forget it.
for that moment. i then realised who were the oneS good to me?
i wanna thanks my dear. a million kisses.
i know you had put in much effort. but i'm just too angry?
my lao gong was damn. so forget it.
yvo and zheng yi... thanks for everything. the laughter and smile was indeed encouraging?
anyway..just wanna thank those who cheer me up? :)



science centre was not bad.
i enjoyed.
i'm totally crazy playing with skinny pole?
she never fail to make me happy whenever i play with her.
anyway. i hate those slime?
disgusting.
i guess sri gotta spend lotsa of time on it.
u took lotsa picture.
lian lian's was a good one!
i still like the one that i took with fell?
it has been so long since we last took it.



i'm tired.
i just wanna hug my dear doggie and sleep.







it is more to your fault for everything.
isn't it?

school was "okay".
my partner didnt come.
the irritant zhou is sick today.
he vomitted.
i offered him the bread but he didnt take it.
so i guess class was rather quiet without his POLLUTION.
keith was a good partner.
i guess zhou's dream must be real nice,filled with warmth.
life is still as plain i guess?
i really feel like sleeping.
never to wake up again.
anyway,i intended to go cineleisure.
but tyb said i'm gonna get no seat.
my friends also didnt answer my call.
so forget it.
not today i guess.
this few days i'm just crazy over JJ's song?
perhaps it is really so damn nice.
it's in my mind.cant get rid of it.

i think i'm really going Cambodia again this year.
i miss my little students.
they're so
adorable,lovable,
simple-minded.
just pure?
and i'll just treat it as a break?
i'm tired.
tired of the promises?
tired of the show?
tired about everything?
i want a break!


i learnt something over these few months..
if you really want something.
grab it.
before it is really gone.
and i really mean gone!
it's too late to salvage or anything.
it's hard to forget.
so dont let it pass away.


anyway,it's one month to chermaine's bdae.
i wanna say" advance happy birthday" to her!
best pal for life:)




drifting?swifting?it doesnt matter.
it's the matter of if you really wanna let it go.
i'm treating as what i see as nothing already.
used to it now.thanks to you.

i'm finally awake.
tired.
sick.
all thanks to the stupid rain,6am in the morning.
yes.
walking alone in the rain.
i just feel like jumping around.
thinking of you.
shouting out your big name.
anyway,it was really damn cold.
luckily i did overslept.
still got off at the right place.



okay.i really hope those damn big mouth would stop all the GOSSIPS.
chang li and i are good friend.
i would say that he's a good friend of mine.
a really good one.
i'm just pissed off.
stop asking.
he's not my bestest BOY-friend.
okay.he sms me only today.
yes?after so long.
we're still good friend.anyway.



anyway my talk with didnt last long.
so sad.
fate?
okay.a person that i will keep thinking of.



i'm still SEARCHING for this friend of mine.
i guess she cant recognise me?
i've changed.
not everyone like huiyi has that good memory.
anyway,i'n still waiting.
last time i met her was in town.
she's 14++,got the same bdae as me.
studying in st' mag.?
still as adorable as before.





okay.someone waiting yea?end here.





still dislike the way you are.

i didnt sleep.
i'm still awake at the moment.
okay.
perhaps i'm still waiting for you to wake up.
but how long?
not forever yes?
i'll wait.

i totally agreed that the show was a waste of anybody's money.
it's your luck to watch it.blame no one.
i cant stand it more than 5 minutes before i went into my dreamland.
it's really that bad.no star for it.crap.
that fat guy and the eerie-looking girl in that show was the worse part of it.
how can they be the main lead?what is this!
the old uncle standing at the entry was king enough to let us change the show.
but too bad.we got to go?
captain chew promised to treat me another time?
okay.how nice of her.but not that idiotic show again?
it reminds me of "THE YEAR OF YAO".
another money-wasting show?
how foolish of me and chermaine.
seriously.please dont ever cheat our money again.we're simple-minded.
show something better?
okay.
i'm still waiting for my wedding crasher.5 months?i've waited.
still gonna wait ya.




art night wasnt that bad after all.
kinda interesting.
i like the PSG dancing the most.
entertaining?
it's jux too bad that i'm on duty.
but i still got to watch part of the show?
my hp was not a bad tool?
though ppl called me IDIOT?
but hey..
i did prevent some from falling down.
the roses didnt cost me a BOMB.so no worries.
thanks to those who stamp me lots.but no more in the public ya.
i felt paiseh.
curry -chap-cai was been too friendly?
but not again?
amanda and i were always runnning away from this big giant la.
okay.i'm mean.but that's the fact.
dun come too near to us again.
if not i really cant predict what will we do in order to PROTECT ouselves.

today was not a bad day.just that all my money were all gone.
got to re-save i guess..?




i know it's the the person that you wanted..
it's the feeling and the shelll of someone's you're after.

firstly..wanna wish Amanda HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
mine is two months later?still long.
who know two months will just zoom past so fast?
okay.
i really enjoyed P.E today.
the best ever for the past seven months?
super duper NICE!
joanne CHEN and i really work well.
i dun noe why i'm so hyper today?
seriously dunno.
kinda crazy?

though i cant play netball today.but somehow i really enjoyed my afternoon?
thanks those faith1-5 gals ya.for inviting me for the game.appreciated.
anyway.
my afternoon at GMPS was fantastic.
seeing the little children running around makes me remind my old primary school days.
how nice?
can i go back to the past and just let me enjoy it for one day.
just one day.it's enough.
what we did was to wait for the teacher after recess.line up one row.
okay.very idiotic but imagine how nice it was?
we were actually playing the BUTT-PUSHING game.
FUN!
who doesnt like the primary school life?
majority enjoyed huh?
yes.
close your eye and think of one good place in p.s.
sure you miss it.
mine is the blind-man corner.
where i play the "blind man" game.
okay...

back to reality.....

i saw mum today.i spent my evening with her.
it was good.
at least i can feel that she really MISSES me sOO much.
i hope she can understand why i'm doing all those things...
all for her.yes.






i miss the place.my favourite eating place.one part of geylang.
it's lor 19.the place that you can never find anything better than that.

i miss the smell.nothing can smell better than that.smell with your heart.you'll know what i meant.

i freakin hate those ppl who just make use of ppl.
i wonder how nice can you be?
it would be bad USING ppl.
okay.
wat can i do if there's really foolS around.
like me?
i pray hard that you could stop doing.
even if you dun want.
that's too bad.
good ppl will not always be around.
going to extinst i predict.
this is bad.ridiculous.watever.



the three of us.we know we can
just stop all those idiotic attitude?
stay in those good days?
jo who cant play netball.
pls dun torture yourself by doing things that dun suit you?
no offence but pls dun.
wat is that, that we cant talk over?
i hope we can be as mature as ever.
not too old and young?yes.


i guess i'm still unprepared to go out with my PAl, as you want it to be.
i find that stress.
but too bad.i'm already dragged away.
perhaps not today.not now.
it's not like those old days already.
there's more ppl in the show now.






life can be a good show if you dont have extras in.

treat what you see as nothing,
nothing can bother you then.

i guess things were better now.i hope.
just stop having cold war.
seriously i hate cold war.
but the moment i see your face.
i dont feel like talking.
dun blame me.
it's the way you want me to be.
why cant you just be nicer.
yes?
i guess that wouldn't be too much.
i had enough of coldness.
longest was one year plus.
wat can i say other than pain.



okay that remind me of "ewl"
seriously miss those days.more than anything.
the part that i like the most was always after quarrel.
it can be sweet and nice.
somehow.it tells you that everything is perfect.
perhaps that was why we have endless quarrelSS?
i always care.it alway matter.to me.



it's the way you make me feel.

i predicted it was the BADest day of the week.
i noe wat's wrong with me.
but how can i ever say it out.
difficult.
lynn did help.yvonee help pretty lots.thanks a bunch.
though i might be that close to them anymore.
but just glad that they were around.that's enough.tt moment.
who would ever understand.
my close friend is never close to me.
i'm always one of the threes?
my friend is always other people's friend.
enough.i really had enough.
i dunno why i'm saying this.but.
perhaps things are just bad today.really.
i cant force myself to tear.





i'm just going crazy.stop being good and bad to me anymore.
enough.

i just came to know this
wong shyang haur..
interesting somebody.
u said tt u gonna buy for me if u have lotsa money.
okay.tell me to remember.
i will.dun worry.i definitely will.
and hope that keith and daryl CHIA stop all their crap.
please!me and him nothing.okay.
and to my dear friendS.hope they will take care.really.


though i never show.but hope you know wat i'm thinkin.

okay.for you.
the moment i opened my eye seeing you.
i know my night was good.
my day will be good.
all the credits goes to you.
so hug closely at night.
the BESTEST creation for me.






i hope to see you again.my everything.

nice knowing you.
hope to know you more.
but i'm still gonna stay clean for now.
okay.
i'll keep you.if u ever cum.
i promise!







i'm not you.
it take time for me to let go.
and i really did

why you simply don't trust me?
you will regret.
i said you will REGRET.
i hate you for now.
for wat u did.
you are just an extra ass in my life.
stop!
dun acting as though you concern me and love me
i dun care anymore
i'm gonna be rude and dun give a damn bout you ANYMORE.

okay.i'm still learning and trying very hard.
i may not be perfect but at least better.yes?
i must really thank YOU for hurting me.if not,
i'll never grow.but everything's over.we might seems close.
but you and i noe,it's just a show?we're playing only.
well,feelings are gone.it can never come back so easily.
let it go.its you who want it to be like that.so dun blame me.


dun try to fool me into your trap again.i beg you.let me go.it's gonna be no ending.really.
believe me.dun hurt me once again.i'm okay already.

trying to get you off my mind really fast now.
i hope everything will be OVER.at least for now.
i'm tired.seriously exhausted.i just you to be happy.carry on.
dun lure me in your trap again.i had enough of all your acting.
it's pretty good.but once is enough.


everytime i sleep.but this is all i dream.

i really enjoy the time together with my two CUTE partners.
i never spend my day so happily for so long already.really.
we get crazy together,beg together,laugh,joke-together.hi-5 together.
okay.i just hope this beautiful dream will not end.can it be ever-lasting?
not too much.perhaps i just wish that it can last longer.
oh yes..10 days to amanda's birthday.2 mths to mine.
well..amanda is just much more OLDER than me.SMALLER than me.
okayy.hope that you'll like the 1st present that you got for ur birthday.
and the surprise i've planned.i dun ask for more.treat me better.

will everything still be the same.i hope yes.

one week had past.
the world is still not behaving good enough.
i cant understand it either
but finally i have realised that everybody is stop speaking the truth.
if you ever said that you are not enjoying school-life
then wat is it that you are excited about all along
obviously you are just lying to urself and everybody all along..

nothing but the truth is wat i'm seeking for now.
once more and its enough.really

it has really been long
but i still got my way out
dere's something,somebody that i cant stop thinking of
but i just wanna live in the way i want it to be